EvilYu's Dreamland

Sunny Tuesday

2009-12-08T12:18:00.002+08:00

Been long time since i last blogging here. Because nothing to blog in here.
I wish to add that i ain't seek attention. Just plain lazy so far..

Wonder how am i gonna do up temporary blog which i can post pictures of plushies i kept in my cupboard? Just want to clear my cupboard and free up space. So i later go post pics on it..
This blog also just nice for me to type crappy here.. =)

What does feelings mean?

2009-05-26T15:25:00.002+08:00

Feelings will mean love and liking one person
Love will mean lot of things
Person can be family, friends, close kins
Such love mean friendship, kinship, true love
Feelings are indescribable hard to fathom

How feelings come about?
Feelings can be painful, beautiful, happy, sad, sweet and unforgettable
Feelings have to be experienced
Making us stronger ever and learn overcome it

Feelings can be painful and unforgettable
Feelings are created over long periods which proved to be tough
How to let go of such feelings
Feelings can make us blind to everything surrounding us
Feelings are beyond words and actions we do
Feelings can be manipulated by people
for own gains and themselves

What can i say and do?
I am human being full of feelings
Though i only can believe myself and my feelings
Who can i blame ? Nobody but myself
Feelings can make me more confused
Feelings and thoughts can make me tired

How to differentiate people feelings towards me?
I don't wish to know anymore of this
I am tired of my feelings and everything
Feelings can tear me apart, throw me amist chaos of sorrow and despair
When i knew people can be selfish for their own sake,
i was torn apart and my feelings are not considered

Hence i have to let go of such feelings of love for my only one and last.
thou' i will not love other half anymore beside my own family and true friends in my life
I have enough feelings and be spared of torture
I will be grateful to move on and release feelings with past
I wish my feelings to be respected and let me be happy on my own life
I will not say any promise at the moment.
At least i did love once in my life and never be blinded by love

I let go of my feelings and relationship as i wish to be free
I feel tired of feelings be manipulated
I wish to be truly loved by someone i love
Now i know to love myself more

Now i let go of everything and shall begin with new life
I don't wish to start one more relationship and hurt more people
I wish to be free and on my own life
I once was naive and stupid to start love person which i should not
Now i let you go and you will free to go on your new life
I have mine and you have yours.
We both are free to do our lives

New beginning of my life

2009-05-26T15:10:00.005+08:00

Everything has come to end
We have to learn move on
No point to keep clinging on to it
When it is not meant to be yours forever.
Have to end now or Never

Embark on new beginning of my life
Fill my life with my family, True friends and
my close kins' support and encouragement
I will move on with life as i promise
Will never break single promise.
Live my life to fullest

Oh i will be strong ever
with love and support i receive
from family, true friends and close kins

Let the moments become past and memories
Hold on to moments no more
Be free of thoughts and struggle no more
Let it be gone and hold no more to it.
It become meaningless when you hold on dearly to it.
Setbacks and experience makes us stronger than ever

Just wish everything will end
Time will heal wounds
Let it go and be free
Yearn no more of such dreams
Dreams can be illusion and will not be reality

should i let such predication affect me?

2009-05-20T09:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday evening, i checked my inbox for any emails. One topic catch my eye. One time, my boy give me link to geomancy website. Then i anyhow check out website out of curiousity, i browse around the site and saw free reading. Hehe.. i go post any question there. I anyhow asked question out of fun.. I ask about my financial situation: " when i will be financial freedom?"

Hmm it take weeks before i have my answer. Roll eyes. I check what is his reply to my question. Gasp.. his reply that his predication is actual financial will be after 50years old. Oh my god!.. Does he really based on my birthdate and time is enough? Wow don't need read my palm or actual chinese name? haha i only give english name. By the way, it set me thinking deeply and even affected me greatly. Wow i am in my prime age, have 20years before reach that age. O.O''
Hey no way am i allow such predication dominate my mindset? Gasp.. i believe anything possible changes will occur during 20years right? Gosh.. I believe my fate lies in my hand and i can change anything within my fate. Hmm must be positive mindset and say NO to predication dominate my mind? Anything impossible can be possible task? =) I knew his predication maybe half accurate or not accurate. hey i am not doubting his profession. But i believe with one thing anything lies in our hand can change our fates and destinies.
Actual 20 years is likely to happen but i don't want this way. So i decide take it into my hands and change actual to be 10 years. haha as i say i can excel under own motivation and perseverance. Don't give me unnecessary pressure. It wont work wonders on me. As i explained in previous entries, i used to fail terribly under extremous pressure and repeat PSLE. I can achieve anything without damned so called stress or pressure..

Hence i must set a goal to achieve my aim to make it as 10 years to achieve financial freedom.

I miss my moral supporter who always give me her full support in my decision as well as some encouragement. =( When i studied ITE or Poly, she never give me any pressure at all as i believed in myself that i can make it attitude. Because she knew i can make it as she have absolute faith in me.

Quote ' Believe in yourself with can make it attitude '
' With determination and perseverance will overcome obstacles'
' With motivation can achieve success '

What evenful day it was yesterday

2009-05-17T12:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday noon i went to attend meeting with my boy at Paya Lebar.. Hmm he kept blah blah:" Why they arranged meeting so early at 11.30am and he insisted want to make it at noon is better?"
I just nod head.. Keke coz my boy stay very far from Paya Lebar and took bus about an hour journey reach Paya Lebar.. While i need take transfer Mrt via Bus to Paya Lebar. No bus available around my home to Paya Lebar.. lol am i revealing too much here? Dotz.. :P

During meeting, we seen heavy downpour.. Then my boy lOoked at me saying: " Bad luck, heavy rain.." Then i turned head look outside.. wow heavy rain.. o.0'' I thought to myself:" will it rain whole day?" However, meeting came to end until heavy rain turned to drizzle.. wow.. so nice weather.. but at same time is sunny after 20 mins waiting drizzle to stop completely..

My boy wanted to go Orchard and i say "Okay.." So we decide check out bus stop which bus go to orchard and bus fares.. Hmm he look at bus fare and journey and discuss with me. After comparing bus fares and journey, we decide to check out by walking to orchard.. LOL..
Are we both kiasu or crazy? Hehe..

By the way, after rain not cooling.. Instead it became unbearable hot for me to take it.. lol..
But i still walked on despite hot weather.. Along journey to Suntec, i began to play with my boy by hitting him.. sigh he also keep bullying me by tit for tat. Hmm walk journey from Paya Lebar to Suntec with no shortcut will take 2 hours. All walking will save us 90cents of bus fares. lol
We go take rest Suntec to eat some food and drinking. Well i already became so thirsty from hot sun..

After done eating food, we decided continue our journey to POMO.. hehe suntec is near POMO so it take us 15 mins reach there.. What is next?
Nothing much to see.. We just go building next to POMO in using laptop for checking emails. lol Hmm did we go on to Orchard? Nope.. ehem .. Oh yeah nearly mention that my boy talked about soccer which i learnt abit from him about scores points and goal differences. Then i later mention are we breaking new record walking so long distance from Paya Lebar to Suntec. lol
He did ask me whether want to go Flyer.. watch live match. However he guess will have lot of people go to Flyer watch live match so we skipped as my bag have free glass from macdonald. =)

Hence we decided to go PS to eat our dinner before go home around 11pm. Because that time will estimate lot of people going home after watch Live match at Flyer. People mostly likely take mrt or bus to home.. =) So i take mrt better which it will not break my glass.. lol

Forgot to mention that i stepped into train with new display of station alight system. =) yeah i encountered more times than my boy. lol i sure once confirmed all trains will be implemented with such display.. it will be unlimited times.. haha

First Time experience

2009-05-15T14:12:00.003+08:00

On tuesday morning i go out try out part time flyer distribution. Keke.. Where is the place? Am i so secretive? yup.. yeah i only will reveal an area which is very highly populated during working hours and lunch hour. hehe Wow i was overwhelmed with trying in giving out flyer to totally strangers. It is my first do such job.. During school days, i been doing flag days holding can with stickers. I lost count of how many times i done this work of flag days. haha... Different feeling when do flyer distribution. I realized not too easy task. O.O ''

Roll eyes. I learnt lot of thing from it.. hmm why those working people lOOk so all mighty..? Faint... So what they held high position and prestigious job, does it give them rights to look so high where they can't see people below them. Hmm i am not stating majority of people lah. Frown.. Only minjority people are fine to me not others.. :( Know why? Even my elder sister also part of that group. Puke... There's so many different groups of peopl from all walks of life..

Sigh.. I am not complaining over here. Just do this flyer distribution and heck care what people say about this.. :( well it has widen my horizon already. As for me. i don't know if i really one day hold such job like them do i snub people .. No.. oH well nobody is perfect.. I ain't perfect too haha

In my view perspection, thinking such flyer distribution is easy job.. No way it is not easy to do such work.. sigh.. Why i have to go out work part time because i can't wait for online earning work for me. When i hardly see earnings online but i did other stuffs which i can't immediately withdraw out cash which are mostly in cents US$ .. No choice i have to go out find bit money to be used online.

Oh well .. perhaps i don't have natural ability which can help me find job soon.. Or i lack experience and talents .. :( However, one good thing has served me well during my school days that is memory power.. haha .. By the way, i am growing old soon and age has catch up with me that i no longer have good memory power.. LOL..... =D

Do i blame people or my parents just cause of my hearing disabilities.? No way, i am grateful to my parents for giving me best present ever.. that's my late grandma who has loved and doted on me despite of my hearing disabilities.. Gosh i am almost verge of tears when mention my cute late grandma.. How i miss her very much? Because she enjoys my company.. with her.. :(

Past event picture

2009-05-09T17:20:00.003+08:00

This picture was taken last year one early morning where my late grandmother funeral was held downstairs. Sigh this picture describe my feelings. I don't know what prompt me to take this picture.. Perhaps.. there will be a better tomorrow despite my control sadness inside me. Hard to bear pain of losing her. Maybe looking at sky will make me feel better and maybe she is living well in other world. :)

What bad luck i have today? Damned....

2009-05-09T01:33:00.003+08:00

After done finish my ice cream this evening, go to bus stop with my boy who waited together for my bus. By the way, my boy and i lived far apart in different areas. Sigh! My bus finally came after long waiting of 30 mins to aboard bus. Yippee.. finally can find seat to sit ..

However, 2 stops ahead have few people aboard bus. I thought sit inside seat let other people sit. Sigh what bad luck i have today. An Indian man is seem crazy to me which i called it as lunatic. Damned.. This lunatic stare at me and look at my asset .. by the way, i wear normal and casual.. Not really sexy clothes. damned him.. As i don't care hoot about him, i sit still and use my bag as protection. Sigh i began curse of f**** what hell this lunatic doing?

All along sit throughout journey, i wonder why damned lunatic use his left thigh come so near my leg? For what? What the hell.. then i began shift my legs away from him. Damned him making my legs ached for shifting away further away from him.. I realized one thing i remember my ex-colleague say what types of men are horny and lecher? I know answer already. what hell.. damned.. arrghhh.. I did sms my boy about help.. but he advised me change seat.. However i did not do so.. and waited see how whether he Got alighted his destination. hell with him ..Lunatic sit through journey to interchange.. What hell ...Arrgh?

However, bus reached certain area i will not reveal here. But lunatic did persist using his leg come nearer my leg. Then i make my point clear and shout angrily at him:" Get your leg outta here!!" I was damned angry and he did take his leg away.. Then i look out window and don't care take second look at him. I want puke at him.. what the hell!"

When i reach my destination and began use my bag as protection of my ass as he never stand up make way.. damned him.. Arrghh.. i feel like curse him using middle finger.. damned....

I immediately alight bus and quickly go home.. just in case won't bump onto him .. Sigh.. Bad luck i feel cursing him.. hell with him .. may he be limped forever.. Arggh...
Next time, i take bus alone and hella kill me i won't sit down if it is longer journey..

Pondering over something

2009-05-05T14:55:00.003+08:00

... I been thinking of one theory prove true.. Haha.. everything around us seems revolve about is MONEY $$$ and TIME seems tickle away fast .. time flies so quickly that i began to lose track of date and time.. :)

Ok.. How to begin on one theory..?

Firstly, last year announcement of global recession affected lot of people working .. resulted less import and export, high rate of unemployment and desperation of people..
2nd, this year come called swine flu.. -_-'' i hate such outbreak.. roll eyes.. ORANGE alert..
oh my god i am wearing orange shirt now. hahah

Reason is why i hate outbreak.. Do all of you remember Sars outbreak which caused hysteria worldwide? By the way, singapore was also hit and all school implemented that all students must take temperature check.. -__-'' That day remained eteched in my mind forever. I wont forget day..
I remember before exams that i been staying at home studying day and night.. But i recall one night i have eaten heaty mango plus period ended before 1st exam paper.. hell with fruits GOt some cooling and some heaty.. sigh.. Why? It can make my body temperature higher than before.. Results is i can never pass temperature checking.. damned... I was not ALLOWED take my 1st paper (favourite subject) and asked go home see doctor. damned What the heck.. It made me more maddening..and sad which i almost went hysteria and screaming out loud with cries.. Why ?? My body temperature is slightly higher than normal lah.. -_-'' stupid idea use temperature. mostly damned not accurate .. Anyways, they have made arrangements by using classrooms allow some of us to take papers. What hell lah? which meant i most time missed taking papers together with my mates at lecture halls.. Sigh...
I was stoned when 1st paper i can't take already and began bombarded lecturer asking will my results be affected due to Sars outbreak.. -_-'' Why?
I only can take paper together with those who Fail that paper( favourite subject of mine).. BOMB.. arrghh.. They never thought of arranging separate rooms where we can take paper. damned.. i hate to remember that unforgetten day..
Bang! That exam paper seems to clash with my attachment working day. I began to plan and think how to work and study at same time.. No worry my favourite subject i can cope with it.. :)
So i that time just made use of 3 days studying for subject.. No problem don't need study and work at same time. Haha just do some reading refresh my mind. Hmm excuse me i prefer take actual 1st paper whom people complain so hard .. i have seen that paper my mates have taken that paper. wow... i like challenging questions.. Sigh. i wanna cry already because i take that paper whom people fail 1st paper when i nvr taken it.. Well.. That paper i taken is way too easy as ABC.. haha Simple.. I can easily ace for that paper. Yeah... the score seems can soothe my heart and mind. sigh it can never erase that time and day eteched in my mind.

Hmm .. i realized one thing that past a month, i been attending free preview talk with my boyfriend which we both need earn income online.

So far we been attending such talks on subjects about:" How to live trading stocks", " How to learn investment?", " Talk on forex trading", "How to profit from ebay?" and last talk " how to work from home extra income opportunities"..

Yeah all such 2hrs free talks come with upsell after end of talks.. Sigh.. So one theory prove all.. " No free lunch in the world" You gotta to work hard for it.. -_-''
By the way, i feel people have this impression of such free talks :" will they ever learn anything from it?"
In my views, not all 100% of people attend such free talks can succeed in it. Haha such free talks can show people greed or merely desperate to earn money within short time.. Hard ... Long way to go..

By the way, my boy and i learn alot from such talks. hehe For your info, we never buy upsell cost a bomb though it come in installment per month. Roll eyes..
what are stuffs we learn anything from it? Well we do lot of research and check up on some areas we don't know. One valuable thing we learn from is ebay talk. Haha.. Don't think of impossible or hard.. haha because my boy finally seen results from it. I believe in long term we can make it.. yeah..

One motto is just go for it.. yeah.. i believe that. By the way, i been slacking too much. Sigh
Know why? I began to lose faith in 2 websites i holding on to dearly.. I don't know where to adversite them.. though can use free traffic. Hell with paid traffic i don't buy that.. If it can leave me more broke ever than before.. sigh.. -_-''

Any golden advice out there..? From readers who have read my blog.. =)

Hope to hear your comments in here. :)

Fired up

2009-05-04T14:21:00.003+08:00

Hi all readers.. Oops these few days never update my blogs. Way too many blogs to handle. haha
Oh well these few days, i was helping to add certain stuffs online. Yeah Happy to make a single sale after all.. Cool.. As long as never give up trying other things. =)

I gotta update this blog site which can be announced to all worldwide. :)
This blogshop is click here for details which sells cheap products that has been highly sourced for people who looking for bargains. winks..

Haha too happy though make sale don't mean lot of money to earn. It take time.. :) I gotta update all of my blogs with new addition at side bar .. hehe

Think and Grow Rich Last

2009-04-24T14:18:00.005+08:00

Began to think what did i do while studying at Polytechnic? Do you all think it seems tough for me to overcome it? haha anyways, i did overcome lot of obstacles.
At first, my poly mates don't know about my hearing disabilities until 3 months later they came to know about it. Because they never ask me any questions. Then one fine day at lecture hall, i drop bombshell to female Poly mate through sms to inform her about my hearing problems. =D I was surprised at their normal reactions. Laughing out loud, i can see that almost all of them never once have impaired hearing friends. O.O But they did know that i came from ITE. In 1st 3months, we have tons of tests.. o.0 However, i have no problems coping with it because ITE already equipped me with basic foundation i learnt already. I got ace in the subject i never do well at ITE. I was bit surprised with myself.

Not until i got hit off well with Poly mates. One of girls ask me a question which i was unable answer it. How to give answer? She ask :" How did u do it when you can't hear so well?"
Stoned.. Well i just simply gave answer like: " do more self study and practise more. I anyhow give answer also like i know how to in some subjects i learnt from ITE"

Surely you can't expect me to tell her that i am clever or what. That's not true.. Must work hard and persistence do well in studies when i am losing interest in this course after 1 and half year in course. :X
Well.. i took Electronics, Communications and Computer Engineering course at Polytechnic for 3 years. Overall i managed to graduate with Diploma and again best present for my late grandmother.

Well .. you have this thought.. Does book of think and grow rich is related to my life? Half Half..
Those who read book before. Correct me if i am wrong anything or misleaded...
Think and Grow Rich is all about teach you how to achieve success by using mind power.
Mind power is all about using thoughts and few attributes to achieve success. I believe this book not only about making money from it and it can enrich your life and create your character by being positive. Look at previous posts i have cite examples i always positive and less negative. Remove all negatives and you can achieve success..

I find a bit similarities which i have acquired during my school days. But why i can't recover my lost attributes to be applied on current situation which i am starting business online?

I find the book extremely useful. It mention must have faith in yourself, armed with determination and persistence can achieve success in anything i want in life.

Think and Grow Rich Part 3

2009-04-24T13:18:00.004+08:00

As earlier post mentioned that i retook O level and working part time. Not until one fine day i became unemployed. haha Perhaps that time i was too young and rash making my decision without discussing with family. Heck care discussion. As previous posts , i already mention that my own family surely imposed stupid negative views on me.

Roll eyes. I was not sure what i want to do at that time. After a year of no working, my fourth aunt gave me advice that i applied for ITE and learn some skills from there. Look who gave advice to me? Not my own elder sister. Fat hope and wishful thinking.. Well .. My elder sister cared about herself and always look so high.. She was so stucked up that time and even prejudiced against ITE. Sigh. Why? Because ITE was once say as IT's The End.. stoned.. Also the school can enroll students with weak grades and famously know some students as gangsters.

I never thought much of school reputation and everything etc. Let nature take it to course. I just want go school independant and equip myself with skills. :)
First time i went apply for ITE course but it was too late as admission was closed already. So i have to wait a year to apply for ITE again. Does it defeat me yet? Shaking head .. NO..

A day come when i finally can enroll in ITE and bought every materials meant for start terms of school. I had this thoughts of doubts. How am i going to make friends etc? haha
I don't want to think too much and began to read textbooks. Wow i find those books contents are totally different and bit interesting at first. I digest information and find it bit hard to understand. Then i have this thoughts to myself: " Never mind i just read all books from first to ending. When school term started, i will eventually understand how to cover those topics i have finished read all. :)

Nothing is impossible as long as you put heart into it.
As you may think, is that all? Hmm i want to cut story short.

At first, i asked my elder sister question:" Can ITE go on to Polytechnic?"
My elder sister replied by saying :" Yes can but only students with good or excellent results can go on to Polytechnic." wow what she say make my heart sank to low spirits. It suck man... I can feel her tone give me feeling that i wont make it. Because she never once encourage me to study hard. Or else she can add one sentence to it:" No worry, you try it and study hard for it.." sigh it never happen. See stupid negative thinking... But am i letting it defeat me and put me down.. No way.. there is a way i can make it.. it telling my mind about it.

However i explained in earlier posts, only 3 people believed in me and never doubt my abilities.
What i promised study hard for it and always achieved my goals in end.. I believe i can succeed in anything i do.

At school , i have no problems coping with my school work and classmates. I feel it all owe to memory power which served me well. hehe Oops i forgot to mention what course i took. :)
It is electronics engineering course which consist of physics, mathematics and programming.. Gosh it make me shudder thinking of those subjects at that time. Have to memorise formulae and some details of subjects.
One lunch time , i was walking around the campus anywhere aimlessly.. Not until i saw poster of admission entry requirement to Polytechnic need about 2.8 points. I can't recall how many points. Because today requirements to Polytechinc have be amended few times already that i was unsure.. When i saw that, points of Polytechnic admission stuck onto my mind. From that moment, i began to have thoughts of studying hard for good grades. It is all about mind power which drive me to aim for points. Did i ever think it is impossible to achieve that. Such thoughts became goals for me to attain and achieve it.

I never thought of impossible tasks. Nonethess, i was determined to achieve my goals and abide by my promises to my late grandmother, which i once cried in front of her and said :" Ah mah, i will study harder than before and strive harder for Polytechnic."
Hence so far, i only promise certain people that i will achieve my goals go on to Polytechnic further my studies.

In the end, i graduated with score of GPA of 3.32 points where i got entry to NYP. Finally i managed to achieve my goals with help of my classmates and teachers. In fact, i owe to encouragement given by my late grandmother , 3rd aunt as well as close friend and few relatives. Without them, there wont be me today. No matter what happen i will take it in my stride. At least, i gave my late grandmother best present that she felt happy and proud of my achievement. As i want to say nothing is impossible. As long as you put heart into it with determination and persistence, eventually succeed in anything you wan to get.

No matter how long the road is and full of obstacles, must overcome it with use of mind power.

Think and Grow Rich Part 2

2009-04-24T12:59:00.004+08:00

Here is most interesting part is why i was unable go on to JC or Polytechnic after complete my O levels. Due to admission requirements, i need to score max D7 in english.. stoned. haha Because i got E8 in english, then how? Wow unbelievable, my elder sister never provide any advice for me. Sigh. So no choice i decide retake O levels as private candidate and go out to society working.
Hmm seems like i have lost those attributes i have back studying hard. Where has my determination, persistence go to? haha it seem easy to lose and harder get it back. I was like lost sheep walking aimlessly don't know where future beckon.
As i been thinking what went wrong during that time i was doing my O levels, perhaps some events or circumstancces make it harder me to maintain thoughts. Maybe and i don't know its reasons.
I can't recall those events but i wont forget the day i lost classmate forever.. Because i once have this dream, i thought we all (whole class) will graduate together. But lost a classmate meant shatter my dreams.. Guess emotions so easy and powerful to kill such dreams..

Nonetheless, life go on for all of us.. :) Will it be better when i don't have such good memory power at all? Yes it will be better i have short term memory loss.. Good Good..haha

You think that is end of it.. I have bit more to add.. haha Pardon my long winded writing.

Think and Grow Rich Part 1

2009-04-23T17:07:00.004+08:00

Here i shall explain how it is possible?

First i like to intro myself again. I am hearing impaired similar to deaf woman..
I never went to school for deaf.. so i studied at school for normal people..
Yeah i was grateful of my parents sent me to school with my elder sister.. Where i get to learn chinese language at school, unlike my fellow deaf friends who never have learn a word of chinese language..

My primary school results are not that great nor outstanding unlike my elder sister.. O_o'' Haha i even repeat PSLE ( Primary School Leaving Exam) to those readers don't know what it mean. Click more details education system .. That time when i finally woke up and come to my senses..
which my elder sis asked me what i want to do when i can't go on to secondary school. She said example like to eat , sleep etc.. It made me think more and deeply .. Finally one time i thought what my primary 5 teacher said once to me in front of whole class :" Are you stupid ? Can't do simple composition which i forgot to do. " That statement she made still remain etched in my mind.. and so fresh when i came to recall that... Sigh...
Final decision i made is to go back to school and retake PSLE.. First i asked and begged my mum don't hire any more home tutor for me.. i can't take any more pressure to take tuition.. Know why? That time i was taking PSLE few months before.. i have feelings of enormous pressure having to cope with extra school and home tuitions.. Faint.. i can't barely cope with pressure and begin to lose interest in studying...haha.. That is result they want from me.. Haha...
I know myself well because i found out from many years of studying.. is that i wont excel under stupid enormous pressure.

But my mum was so firm with her decision to hire home tutor for me. You have this thought:" did you give up trying ? " NO way.. i am going to keep on trying .. Hence i sought help from my favourite auntie to help me persuade mum don't hire any more tutor.. . How did i do? well i promise my auntie that i will study on my own and study hard for coming exams this time..
Yeah i get my wishes finally.. Mum agreed don't hire any tutor for me..
Haha .. see never give up trying on.. :)

Well as you see . more persistence will achieve any goals you set.
Next what happen in the end?
Did i achieve exact what i promise my auntie? :)

Yeah i manage to pass my exams all just average grades go on to secondary school.
But feeling disappointed that i was promoted to normal stream of 5 years education i have to spend at school. Happy that i able go on to secondary school..

Hmm even my own family don't think much when i said that i will study harder at school. Sigh..
Not when i have set goals to achieve when i come to know my elder sister mention one of her classmate also made it to express stream from normal stream. Hehe it become a dream to me as well as my wishes.. Hence, such thoughts of it push me to study harder.. Well from that time, i was motivated to achieve my goals to go on express streams.. What is that u say of this? It is thoughts which can developed persisitence and determination i shown in my studies. Wow is it extreme change in me? o.0?? i don't know. haha Despite my mum think lowly of me and think negatively that i wont make it .. due to my primary school results that i Got last in class position..

As i have explained earlier, mind is quite powerful that it can help me through all the way.. To achieve success in my studies that i topped my class and went on to express stream.. Finally..i believe as long as i have faith in myself armed with determination that i can make it..
Haha such good news to share with my auntie.. that she bleamed so wide and happy for me as well as my late grandmother who doted on me from young till today. Without them, i will not be here today saying my story.. :)
So far only 3 people in my life have faith in me and my abilities to overcome those obstacles.
They are my close friend, favourite auntie and late grandmother who keep encouraging me and have faith in me..

I shall continue in next post..

Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill

2009-04-23T16:40:00.006+08:00

Few days ago, i began to read this book " Think and Grow Rich" wrote by Napoleon Hill..
I believe that quite lot of many people read this book before.. But how many have benefit from it?
What is all about this book? Wow.. unbelievable that i never once read this book when i was studying years ago..
Haha

I borrow this book from my boyfriend who has bought old version three years ago. Roll eyes ..
He never benefit anything from it.. I know WHY? hehe
Because i know WHY my boy never benefit from it? Coz' he find it hard to apply on in his life.. Gosh.. He keep saying almost every book which have contents of Mind stuffs is hard because it require mind power ?

hmm i shall leave out contents i been reading from the book as mentioned..

Is this book useful for all people from all walks of life? Yes it is.. Also it can be apply when you still studying... haha

Depends on each individuals and their thinking. hmmm
I wish to explain why the book can be useful to those who are studying...?

As this book explain about using your mind power.. Wow.. yeah Mind is tat powerful...

Let me cite an example.. why?
I never read this book when i was studying years ago. Plus nobody recommend this book to me..
Can impossible become possible? Yes it can be made possible as long as you have determination, persistence, diligence and patience.

While reading this book, i realized that attributes of determination, persistence , diligence and patience i been applying on when i was studying year agos to pursue my higher education. I was motivated to study harder than before... Yes Mind power is so powerful it keep telling me that i can make it... When i have goal to achieve it.. is it possible? Yes i never think negative and it helped me alot during my school days...
By the way, my own family never encourage me in my studies and they keep impose negative views on me.. wow.. i been growing up facing all negatives.. Stoned.. haha nonetheless i never let it affect me greatly.. Gosh you might find it and thinking :" How is it possible?"

Hmm you all may find this post way too too long to read. So i shall summarize it in detail by posts and how is it possible to achieve that?

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2009-04-18T16:25:00.003+08:00

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Unpredictable weather

2009-01-15T17:52:00.003+08:00

Today i went out for walk, seeing sky with dark clouds which i thought it will rain.
Yet it never rain yet. o.o''
Wow Heaven like make fun of me, fool me into thinking it will rain later.. o.o
Never mind, i am used to it. haha

Oops wondering should i redesign this blog of mine? I been lazy so long .. never update this blog of mine... Pardon my laziness. Not much to say nowadays.

I just done other blogs thinking, how to manage time by update each blogs individually.

Deeply in thoughts, i don't know what is my purpose in life? o.0? Haha
Laughing out loud, am i withering away somewhere?
Guess i better not dream and hope too much lately.. Better do my own stuffs, or otherwise i will be lazy again..

Resign to my lame fate

2008-10-10T22:07:00.003+08:00

Thinking and wondering..
Do we have to work till we die or grow old before i can achieve my long term dream of traveling.. ? I know traveling need $$ and is dangerous around the world..
Alas..
perhaps my thinking is too extreme.. especially i am growing up in protected environment like enclosed cage example..zoo..
Hahaha
That's why i hated people's views of me,especially my own family tend to belittle my own ability and instinct let it be studying or working outside..

How to say? I don't wish to dwell on past...
It set me in thinking...
Sigh.. I wonder whether i got working or not working, i still cant get to travel outside with my girl/boy friend to nearby country.. So sad.. that's why my mind tend to be narrow minded..
Know why? I don't know.. don't ask me..
I can say an example.. one thing i know is my own family don't know that few times when i was young and dared venture around town area alone unfamilar to me.. yet i can be independant and know my way around. ah ha.. know what.. nobody know.. Like one time visit my aunt in new town.. then later i can move my way around new town.. mind you.. i am not road moron.. who the hell person is map idiot.. haha. i am not one..

Studying is which i don't excel in when in primary school. always score last in class.. yeah.. but i think this way being last mean being 1st.. haha lol..
I don't care less.. =P
Not until i come to my senses......yeah i wake up at that time, no more lazy and keep playing... is end for me.. haha
i can be motivated greatly on my own.. Unbelievable right.. when my own family never really bother encouraged me to study hard especially my own elder sister.. sigh..
i don't know what to say.. i am in low mood at this moment.. perhaps i think too much...
Now now i am all grown up and tied tightly to the string like a kite, held by my family.. lol
can you imagine it?
Know what.. i can push myself to great lengths to work hard towards my goals.. thankfully and thank god who give me 5 years let me give great present to my own late grandmother...who has been my support of encouragement and given lot of things i never expect much from her.. Love you dearly ah mah...
So my late grandma can feel proud of her favorite daughter who work hard to overcome those obstacles.
Come to recall who has been great help to my life.. without them there would be no me in here blogging away.. haha i am grateful to my dearest 3rd aunt who encourage and believe in my ability of studying.. that she never give me slight pressure..
There are too many people i am grateful to for their encouragement.. I love them..
Top 3 people i feel too grateful are 3rd aunt, late grandma and one of my friend joanne.. rest are relatives.. without them, i almost could not graduate in my studies.. One person who give me golden advice is my 4th aunt who suggest that i try ITE go on to study.. ITE mean in the end.. haha not true..Without her advice.. i would not be able give my late grandma best present.. too many people to mention.. Funny and ironical.. thing.. though i would not be here without my parents who bring me to this world... that i should be filial to them.. My own parents never encourage me in my studies ever though they did care about my welfare and hearing disabilities.. what i want is to be recognized in past cannot be achieved .. haha funny joke.. young am i.. never do much seek their attention become invisible vase before my own family.. haha..
I was not that important in my family from young till today. and not highly regarded in family statue. I wonder why? Now they took notice of me when i am that grown up with my own life.I loved that feeling of importance when my late grandma has me in her heart and place as well..almost my uncles and aunts knew my grandma doted on me most.. i was at least more happy to have known ah mah..Now she's all gone.. no more feeling of importance.. Know why? only my late grandma always smile and happy at mention of my doing well in studies.. and could ask my 3rd aunt buy me nice present like food.. not quite expensive just my favorite food.. yummy.. she knows me well =)
So this life i am quite content with..however, when i knew my wishes can't be fulfill like give ceremony tea to my ah mah..
My elder sister mention we have to move on with life.. i know that.. i really want to move on.. but i wish to fulfill my dream .. work can come later.. why must we have to work till we die or grow old can see the world.. .. I don't want that..
Anyone can advise me what i can do with my lack of skills and hearing disabilities..?
I really hate myself alot.. I can't blame anyone.. except myself.. I am tired..

Why my own sisters can be selfish? While i cant be? i am tired.. I hate being 2nd in family.. acting as fiddle not important in family ..My 2 married sisters are great and selfish expect me to shoulder responsibilities look after my parents. O_O''
yeah they did mention share responsibilities.. HUh uh.. when they single, never bother accompany mum for short period just coz' they too busy working and dating huh.. huh i don't buy that.. HMMpf.. now married happily and can afford time accompany mum and control my life.. blah blah interfere way too much.. I was already pissed off.. sigh.........
Points taken.. when they studying in school, they never thought of stay at home accompany mum.. Never.. Only me always loved home too much during school days.. mum did tell me go out with friends.. o.o? who who ? how when i can't call up friends? freaky make me mad already..
ARGHHH i wanna scream out loud here.. FREAK Get out of my life.. and don't keep me tied to kite... i can't fly high and might snap one day like a lifeless plant.. lol

In Bad and rotten mood

2008-08-28T22:34:00.002+08:00

Earlier on checking my emails, i received email from my elder sister ..This sister of mine keep thinking she is BIG ah.. always hold stupid authority in taking over matters into her hands when she already married off. I feel pissed off when i checked website link that she trying help me find job. Wow i am damned pissed off and fed up when they keep interfere with my life by help me find job. Guess what job she is trying help me find? Work at famous coffee shop YA KUN toast..? I feel like swear at her .. i was fuming mad.
Well i been unemployed haha.. i sure my being unemployed put her to shame.. Hmmm i will not reveal my age here. Know what she is a bitch,pretend to be helpful.. Yucks.. it put me off and piss me off. Few years ago upon my graduation, i been finding jobs online and offline.. newspapers. I was hard hit.. when facing no reply to interviews. what can i do? With no working experience and my hearing disabilities. Finally spent one year found part time work at KFC where i been working about 1 and half years though got promoted but pay is terrible low..
Not until i found other job with average pay working temporarily can't reveal a place.. But i don't like boss's fickle mind.. and i will go bonkers work alone in room with no pc. -_-'' terrible feeling.. i will go insane.... talking to myself alone..
Then i don't care and quit job. Yeah i know find job is not easy.. i knew it right.. u want me carrying on working that environment which will make me insane anytime.. ..o.o until i found job.
I don't want to work full time job already.. because have to sign stupid contract.. I prefer be free as bird.. so i choose part time.. job.. Since i know few online can earn money though not much.. No choice.. maybe i decide go out work part time.. no choice when i found online earn income is damned hard.. IT make me stoned...

Now i just want to scream out here.. and swearing at people.. leave me out and quit interfere with my life.. Oh how i miss my lovable grandma who never hurry me find job when i used to stay with her years ago.

I know what to do with my life as long as damned people stay out of my life.. sigh.. My stupid sister think i don't have other friends.. Damn her. hell with her.
Damn her.. All owe to her.. i unable excel in my studies when living with her and family.. But i do extremely well in my studies when staying over at my grandma's house because of grandma's encouragement.

ALL of you out there know why.? I guess my problem is insignificant matter compare to unfortunate people out there.

I am second in family, play fiddle in family meant giving in to elder and younger ones. No matter what they want. I always give in the end.. Who will give in to me and ever listen to me? WHo? They are my aunt and grandma.. I loved both of them...
They always believe in my abilities of studying..and encourage me alot during my difficult times and when i face obstacles in my school. They don't doubt my abilities.. Know why? At least i knew they are only ones more happy to know i done well in my studies unlike my own family... I grew tired being angel giving in.. Hence know why? Being second is known to have fiery temper.. But i was opposite.. haha cant imagine.. right? I was known to have short temper.. that's all..

Okay enough of my rambling here.. Time to end here..
Still fuming mad with stupid sister of mine...

Should i commit suicide?

2008-08-02T14:07:00.004+08:00

I yearned to travel yet was deprived of going somewhere else yet so near. I know my people around me tend to worry about my safety and lot of things.
All i wish is small thing able to travel see world.. yet was deprived..
I been asking for it... but they won't allow it.. What can i do when my family thinking was so conservative and protective.
Should i commit suicide or let it pass by? No way.. it seems not fair to me.. whY they can go so far n further to other countries.. Yet my request travel to malaysia not granted?
I knew they won't trust my judgement.. then why bother with my life...
My life was like an enclosed cage similar to zoo...
Ever since important person in my life was no longer around.. , i all wished is to travel other places with my other half.. Nobody will know what will happen in future..
Nobody can predict .. Today we live.. but will my tomorrow come...? Nobody know.
People i knew can be quite selfish and never think of me as human being..Or family. Never thought of taking me to travel with them.
Now i am grown up.. no longer want to travel with them
I just only want to travel with only one who can take me traveling sightseeing...

Yesterday i go to travel fair.. Wow so many people turned up at fair because travel packages look attractive and cheap.. .. Then my darling ask me whether do i want travel or not? I was indecisive and my family got hold of my passport.. How do caged person like me able to travel?
Though now i have freedom go out anytime or home late.. But.. singapore can be boring at times.. I yearn go to other places shopping or travel... What the hell... why that i can't do that? Sigh..
At the fair, my darling and i bumped onto old friend of ours.. He was deaf , older than me ..yet can travel alone to other countries.. Wow.. i was so envious and yet jealous..of him.. O_o..
I told him truth .. and he says oH god..
This friend of ours was so nice.. and even suggested lot of ways .. yet won't work out the way i wanted it to be.. He even asked my darling.. when he can take me traveling.. i told him Hard...

I still thinking.. what i want to do this time? I don't know.. and lament why i make lotsa mistakes..
sigh....... All i don't want to live anymore.. this way........... Even my siblings won't help me out..
Sucks hella.. They thought my darling will sell me off when i knew he won't do that..
I was damned pissed off.. and they wont trust my judgement.. So only way out for me vent out my angers on here.. Though i knew my problems can be trivial and small matter..

As i explained already, my dreams is to travel... THough i used to travel on cruises..cruise is damned boring.. all is about shaking body on cruise only never went out... venture.. dAmned boring......

As i mentioned earlier.. My siblings can be damned selfish.. and won't ask me single question whether want travel with them when they took mum travel to Hong KOng.. I was damned pissed off..
One time, my mum asked me want go to taiwan when she was supposed go for religious test .. crazy and stupid idea when i am grown up.. .. ARghhh..

I dare say foul word people never heard of me say before..

All i wish my family don't interfere TOO much with my life what i want to do..
STOP INTERFERE.. I HAVE ENOUGH of this life...

Perhaps i think too much that.. i wont be able to travel one day.. just passing remark only..
All i want to do simple thing.. is to travel.. THEY all think too much and read too much of 1 thing..
NOw i post this on blog... is to show unhappiness..
I been waiting for a chance to travel.. in past.. Now i have chance.. but deprived...
All they want to deprive me of chance and things i want to do..

I want ask people out there.. What you will do if you are in my shoes?

Yesterday dated 17may

2008-05-18T11:36:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is a day which is my grandma passed away about 7days.. the time she is going home for last time.
Yesterday morning, i woke up early to go down temple pray for ah mai where her tablet is keep there. I have mixed feelings when i see my late grandpa tablet coz' his tablet also include my dearest ah mai's name. Hence, we have praying session for her. But i feel there is need for me to abstain from meat for 3 days in order to accumulate good deeds for ah mai. Hope can lessen her suffering in other world.
I keep thinking what else i can do. So i started separate blog in memory of ah mai and wish write down moments i spent with ah mai. So at same time, can give rest of family members to write down happy moments at the blog. I am scared when i grow old, my memory of my dearest ah mai will fade as time passed by. I don't know.. Not easy be strong as ever.. coz' i feel bond shared between ah mai and i.. are unspeakable.. Task is enormous i don't where to begin writing.. i was at loss.. Perhaps first find those pictures which i can relate to those events.

cremation day of my beloved grandma

2008-05-15T20:56:00.003+08:00

Today i woke up especially early around 7am coz' i scared of being late for prayer session. Since still early so drink coffee and eat biscuits. Wow saw my dad also woke up too.. O.O'' So we watch tv news which discuss abt taiwan govt politics. Then my dad say it's too early so we sit a while .. Then dad said need call up my fourth aunt whether she is ready go off with us to ah mai's hse. My aunt say meet at mrt station at 8.30am so i told dad to go off around 8.15am.
Exact at 8.30am reach there to fetch aunt and her kids. =)
However, in my dad's van got 2 kids who are in primary school ask me ridiculous riddle.. which i knew exact answer.. take me stupig huh.. i just say any answer similar to that answer. While talking anything .. then we encountered short traffic jam around farrer road. Finally reach there around exact 9am plus..
I immediately take cloth stick on my right side sleeve and pay respects to ah mai. Also look at her for last time and bide my farewell to her..
Finally the monk came and begin prayer session. Usual chanting and bowing 3 times in front of ah mai. Final session is to hold items to praying which is applicable to all daughters and sons of ah mai. Sigh Why cant customs change abit? I am Ah mai's favourite granddaughter.. can't i hold items to pray for ah mai.
Done prayer around 11am. According to custom, we all have to walk distance to send off ah mai to her journey to other world. Then halfway we board bus which take us to mandai columbarium, where there's lot of expressway taking about 30 to 45 mins to reach. We reach there before 12pm.. exact at 11.45pm. do chanting prayer. I never expect hall 2 cold.... But ppl at mandai take us to place where we can view my ah mai coffin. I see it is appearing at left side corner which it is being moved to other mover. Gradually, it move slow slow towards the furnace where the door is open for the coffin. Half of us are crying.. But i am not crying coz' i need to be strong.. and deliver my promise as i made to ah mai.
Done viewing, we all went outside and take off our socks which have to be thrown away. Once done wear our shoes, we all go to toilet to relive ourselves. We all waiting for awhile before going off to temple where we have set up tablet for my ah mai, where it is located near tan tock seng hospital.. novena area.. Of course, we have do prayer and kneeling, holding items to pray...My wishes are granted as i wish to hold items to pray to ah mai. I remember we done exact ard 12.45 to 1pm and go back ah mai's hse downstairs makan lunch.. We are being served 5 dishes and a dessert.. so much that i am bloated. O.O coz' i eat too hurriedly ..WEll due to time limit, we have to rush back to mandai collect my ah mai's ashes which should end around 2pm.

After lunch finish exact at 2pm plus, we all go off to mandai ard 2.30pm.. because one of my relative have to pay bills at one go by cheque at last min.
We reach there nearly exact ard 3pm plus, we waited a while for someone who will be doing ashes placement into urn. We all being led into a room where we all can take one of bones placed inside urn. 1st, all sons of ah mai placed 50 cents coins into urn be4 can put bones... Seeing full of bones.. signify my ah mai already cremated and became bag of bones... I somehow feel at loss and pick bone to urn with heavy heart. I begin to think alot about ah mai.. tears began trickle down by itself... when i realized ah mai is gone 4ever and she remain in my heart. I think exact around be4 4pm we done ashes into urn.. we go off to mount vernon put urn together with my late grandpa.. At mount vernon, we do prayer 4 ah mai first whom monk will do chanting... while waiting for other ppl come in half an hour who is in charge of open my late grandpa's place and put inside my ah mai's urn together with it.
so all done at 5.20pm.. then we went back my ah mai's hse change white shirt into other shirt ..
Finally, my mum keep hurrying me and i immediately speed off.. to hawker centre makan abit.. tat's exact 6pm...Coz' my bro order claypot rice .. which take ages to be cooked.. so We finish dinner at 7pm.. hence i came home around 8pm. I was feeling tired physically from all those events. If i ever cried too much, i will collapse earlier. If not, you wont be reading this blog.
More will be updated later

Demise of my Beloved Ah Mai.....

2008-05-15T00:53:00.007+08:00

For past a week, i been visiting my dearest grandma at hospital who is hospitalized on 1st may (labour's day) due to doctor's discovery of hollow hole near neck part. I came to know news of my ah mai ( granny) from my aunt and mum. I was totally stoned hear she is hospitalized. Not coz' i was heartless.. just speechless dunno what to do. My ah mai always doted and loved me most among all her grandchildren. Seems my whole family and relatives said that i am apple of eye in my ah mai's eye. Seem whenever i give her any food, she will eat or finish it up.

Hollow hole near my ah mai's neck is result of flesh eating bacteria. I was stoned and hear this fatal disease will eat up flesh by bacteria. On 2nd may, i went to visit ah mai with my whole family.. I seen her neck being bandaged due to surgery clean neck area part which is being eaten away by bacteria. I feel sad seeing her to suffer so much in pain. Not until few days later after her surgery, her condition is very critical. Which i heard that one monday morning, ah mai have heart attack and has stopped once. All owe to nurses and doctor's hard work whom they perform CPR shock on her chest, eventually saved her life and pulled her back.

Henceforth, upon hearing her critical condition that i began visit her often. Whenever i visit her, i will see her hands being swollen due to tube attached on her. Those tubes is filled with medicine to help her fight bacteria. However, i saw her hands being tied up coz' one time she did bang on bed in vent frustration as she is unable to speak, which she lost her voice box. It saddened me to hear that i wont hear her laughter i always never fail coax and make her laugh so loud.
Not until one time, my cousin's friend who works at ICU where my ah mai is warded informed us that her condition is not looking good as her blood pressure is dropping low level.
I heard that she always respond by moved her lips abit or blink her eyes or twist tight on her forehead whenever we call out her or talk with her.
I did greet her AH Mai everytime i visit her. I don't know why i nvr cry. Perhaps i don't want worry her. She suffer too much already.
Not until one fri dated on 9 may, i did greet her ah mai repeatedly that time i did see her blink eyes, she tried open her eyes twice just see me by responding me. However, i heard that my elder aunt did call her but she nvr responded. Becoz' i heard her condition is not good, nowadays she dont respond to ppl's greetings. Everytime i visit her, it saddened me to see her suffering in pain. When i look at her, i gently touched her forehead and her cheeks as i used to play pranks on her. It make her happier whenever i purposely play with her. It hurt me so much whenever i think of times i spent with ah mai. In order not let her to suffer too much anymore, we advise my 3rd aunt who is closet to ah mai, to talk with her to let go of everything and be free of suffering. Hence she has talked to her and my ah mai shown no response to my aunt words.

One saturday, almost all family and relatives turned up visit her which that time her condition is not good coz' her blood pressure is dropping low. That day, i have premonition about ah mai will leave us anytime. Not until dusk falls, some relatives go home already while i say i still want stay over nite due to my elder sis say my ah mai's blood pressure is low at 38 .. which make my premonition come true. My hunch is that ah mai make sure some of us will go back den she will leave us.. my guess is correct. almost half of ppl visit her in daytime go home already include all kids.. At least all of us did visit her.. But that day, i did ask aunt whether can i say some words to ah mai.. Coz' i dun wan ah mai suffer anymore in tis way. Coz' almost all uncles or aunts have told her stuffs i dunno wat they said to her. But it hurt me so much that i have to tell her that Ah Mai! dont worry abt us. We will be strong, will live, eat well and be happy. I even asked her. Do you trust joanne who will help 3rd aunt? I even told her.. Let go if you feel tired or feel pain ? also i keep repeat.. don't worry abt us.. WE all grown ups already and will take care of ourselves.
After those words i said ard 9pm.. Not until my ah mai passed on peacefully at 11 plus.. i was there witness her passed away which i keep seeing ASY mean zero heartbeat.. blood pressure drop to low level 20 + .. It make me stoned... Yet i nvr cry, know y i dun wan ah mai turn back to suffer again. Coz' i knew she will worry abt us.

Then around 15 mins plus, i go inside ICU again just see ah mai again. Not until i follow elder aunt and others inside.. i saw elder aunt rushing inside to hear what doctor say.. She fall down which shocked all of us present seeing her in panic and sadness.. Den i see 3rd uncle immediately hold her up and hug her tight as he wanted to make sure she's alright. I was worried abt her fall. =(
I go to ah mai's ward say last words to her. Ah mai, go slowly to other world and dont turn back. Once again for last time, i touched ah mai's forehead and said silently .. Farewell my beloved ah mai.. Be on the way to other world. It hurt me so much just say those words to her.. It make me sadder...

After see ah mai, we all went outside.. and discuss funeral preparations. Not until my 4th aunt reappeared after 20 mins plus. I see her so pale and panting away in anxious.. then she asked :" Is ah mai passed away? Elder aunt says yes. 4th aunt began sobbed hard. While i hold her arm and found it is bleeding from bad fall she experienced. I lead her to sit down while pat on her head.. don't cry.. i always hold tears be strong so can console others.

I also see my other elder cousin crying alot.. and i began console her that ah mai no longer have to suffer anymore.. I said juz let go of her.. and let her be free of suffering.
So many unexpected events happen on that day. Does it make me strong than before. I don't know.. Becoz' today is my ah mai's cremation day... All i know i will cherish happy moments i spend with ah mai..

Frankly speaking, ah mai is fortunate seeing some getting married and have great grand children... However, only regret is that she is unable see her favourite granddaughter get married and nvr get to drink ceremony tea...
Nonethess.. i love you Ah mai.. Farewell my ah mai. I was happy to know that you end sufferings and no longer have to worry about us. Thanks for Love and Doting on Me..
I was already emotional... when thinking of past... and happy moments.. i will always remembered... dearly..

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2008-04-29T02:34:00.003+08:00

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2008-04-25T15:19:00.003+08:00

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2008-04-25T14:44:00.001+08:00

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2008-04-16T01:13:00.001+08:00

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Get Fit After Kids

2008-04-14T17:56:00.001+08:00

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2008-04-10T21:43:00.004+08:00

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New blog updated

2008-04-05T23:16:00.002+08:00

Laughing out loud.. i take ages to create blog.. Am i so slow..? Anyways, nobody wanna read.. very boring. Hmmm this one is updated and i gotta post link there.
Just trying it out. hmmm next one is different blog i will be creating later on. Hmmm
Just create abit of mystery air.. hehe

Thinking hard in this windy evening

2008-04-03T20:25:00.005+08:00

Been planning of it for long time and i need write stuffs on separate blog sites. Because i feel that there is need to separate my personal and online business, in order making this nice and neat site for viewing. Which i aim to do 3 blogs on different subjects. I am really at loss how to start working on this mini project of mine. Haha. Hmm my darling is better than me because he began work faster than me. Well you can check out link titled lottery for fun at the right side of this page. I guess my blog is kinda boring to read. Nonetheless, i still carrying on blogging. Well, my motto is perseverance to end till i succeed.
I will keep you updated with more coming up... any advice for me . Just put your comments or shout there at message dialog at right side.

Thinking how to earn income online with free traffic

2008-03-26T19:26:00.002+08:00

o.o'' All boils down to smart marketing. Ehmm does it mean make me stupig that i hardly can make sale from other people's products. The fact is that everywhere i see competition and need pay penny be4 can make sales, earn income.. o.o'' Nobody teach me except i keep read read ebooks till it got me confused haha. Do i have to use those products be4 i can recommend to others. Hey .. results may vary.. to each individuals. o.o think of a niche. hmm i Don't know what interests i have besides zzz, play games and watch tv drama and movies. I know darned need traffic traffic traffic to any sites which need real visitors not damned stupid bots there anyhow view ads where i got post there at traffic exchanges. -_-'' Importantly is how to get free traffic? Do i have to summon ghosts who will possess human beings log online see and purchase any products making them poorer than be4.. hahaha

Oh yah i am sure some people out there might wondering whether i got make sales from my website which i paid for.. Yes got earned back my money but not much leaving me wondering more how to keep earning those people claim earning 5 to 6 figure sum. o.o''

I also want earn that kind of money so i can help my family tide over $$$ problems. Damned i hate this being grown uP. What the heck of help out? Wish i can be heartless more , more selfish... haha i Knew i wont be that kind of person. Coz' i hate nagging come from my BIG sister mean elder sis laH. She keep blah blah this and that.. How am i doing , what i want to do? I not sure and i hate 9to5 job lifestyle.. sucks. Hell with those top gurus who keep claim will help people.. fact i want to know what products will sell blah blah...

All thinking give me headaches and made me more sleepy... Though i can admit i have lotsa ideas in mind but unable implement it .. taking action lOH. Know Why?? People around me tend to have more NEGATIVE views blah tis tat. meaning my close friend, family. I hate this stupig of influence.. damned negative thinking.. How am i going to succeed like that.. I don't have family support nor encouragement.. Only my darling will give me moral support.. hmm
Last of all ... i want to say i tried alot of programs, methods which those top gurus used to do be4.. But hell with them i even personally email them, then they emailed back rubbish..
Haix so what i managed 1 or 2 signed up which i joined particular programs.. Can't make money this way.... so hard... same as outside world. damned do i have to find manual work.. damned.. people out there.... Arghhh OOps am i complaining here too much.

I don't know how to stay positive and look at bright side.. haha sometimes can stay motivated.. i was not sure already. Just wish don't want to spend more dime on lame advertising.. i hate adwords... It tire me out.. Or i have to redesign my blog or add one more hidden agenda at this blog.. don't know lah.. maybe will do that.. haha :P

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2008-03-25T19:14:00.002+08:00

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2008-03-23T14:23:00.006+08:00

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New design of my blog

2008-03-20T21:38:00.002+08:00

Haha i can say i am out of touch with html coding. because last time i know html coding which tat time don't have javascript and widgets. It totally irriates me when i tried add one script onto. WAh.. totally different templates can function well or not function well. Anyways, cheers to my darling help me fix this blog with new design.
=) haha Am i so dumb making changes to templates. Gosh almost make my blog disappear for good. hehhee However, he love mess with my blog design by putting so colorful wording.. Arghh i know basic stuff which must not put too colorful wording to it.. OR will turn many ppl away.. sobs...

Help friend sell Agva bag

2008-03-18T16:15:00.002+08:00

Just helping out a friend by posting it here. =) Please check out at this auction by clicking here

Testing out stuff

2008-03-15T14:13:00.002+08:00

Well Just testing this little details. Need how to figure it out. hmm

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2008-03-15T14:00:00.002+08:00

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Cute nephew pic

2008-03-10T20:38:00.002+08:00

Hmm i happen see a link from my bro-in-law msn saying Pls vote for his son who is my nephew. haha Yeah cute and can pinch his cheeks haha .. SShh luckily they dunno my blog. Anyways, everyone who got see my post here. haha
Hmm i post link here. You can go see it for urself :)
http://www.mumcentre.com/index.php?option=com_rsgallery2&catid=1464&page=vote&picid=7443

P.S: You are not obliged to vote only you feel cute.. you may do so. keke that's all folks.

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2008-03-03T12:22:00.002+08:00

Wow.. so nice web builder great for those who are average in building website in order to earn income online. Save you lot of tons of money. keke Those who are interested just check out. haha
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28feb wedding dinner

2008-02-29T20:47:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i woke up early at 5.30am because got make up artist come in early do make up on my elder sis face. Plus i also helping mum do some stuff like paste wedding stickers on doors. O.O My eyes barely can open .. still tired. haha Wah is my ears playing tricks on me when i hear have do serve tea ceremony? Never heard of this laH O.O Have to greet Jie Fu (bro-in-law) .. o.o'''' My first time serve tea to elder sis.. stoned awhile. lol Nonetheless, i do good work so far hehe never do foolish thing may put myself to shame. Yeahhh Oh yah anymore to mention.. Got few part to add. Wah i have my role to do.. Like check on my relatives mean how many of ppl attending dinner and bring them to their tables. hehe luckily for me only got 4 tables to do haha. Oh yeah even one day one of my ger friend wanna me help with coordination of her wedding dinner. No thks. haha you can say i kind of very infinity with gal friends. :p haha I already sweat this one like my elder sis's wedding dinner .. O_O haha Before dinner, we witness her solemonisation (ROM).. having to witness 2 ROM o f my 2 sisters make me feel that wiLL i ever get to ROM... plus with mixed feelings that i maybe have no tml to speak of. I don't know why i am thinking this way. LOL... Frankly speaking having seen my 2 sisters got marry their other halves make me think alot. hehe Before proceed to the venue of wedding dinner, we got makeup artist do make up of me, mum and young sis. Wow i was speechless and shocked seeing new me.. Is it me huh? I like artist skill.. best and good. keke Even my elder sis saw me in woW and shocking expression see me which i look totally different from normal. haha Besides my sis, i also shocked my relatives.. lol they even exclaimed wow.. u even make up.. Their eyes and expression amused me.. hehe Nonetheless, they make my day.. i was so happy.. first time feel this way.. My elder sis asked whether wan take bit more pictures with her alone. o.o hehe
i feel estactic.. keke hehe just put comments there i will keep u updated through other ways.. cheeers.. I will put up photos few days or week later don't know when my sister done with photo..
That's all of my life ... hmm But only part, so disappointed when my favourite cousins never turn up because i wanna them see me in that make up which i look different from normal.. haix.. never mind.. hmm

pictures of 3rd and last wine Armege Sempe

2008-02-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

This wine is kept in box very long time. Because i seen box so old and yellowish. I recall almost half are from hampers. Not well known wines. I also unsure of those such wines cost. Hmm thinking must be low values. Arghhh
almost 3 wines are of low values. I don't have well known wines to speak of. Sucks. never mind can sell it for money is good enough. haha This wine originate from France and come with a box. I will update of rest of some wines not included in here. Keep posted in here. Hope to hear news from people who got read this post

pictures of 2nd wine brand Dimple

2008-02-26T17:11:00.003+08:00

This big and oval wine bottle is so unique. As far as i know, there is hardly such bottle make like this. Again i want and wish to know how much this wine fetch. Hope people can give me forums of wine valuation. Once again, same age of keep wine around 15 to 20 years already. I not sure how long and its origin. To those wine experts know alot about wines. Giggles. Oh i nearly forgot mention almost all wines neither gotten from hampers or some from duty tax airports my dad bought from. I want to add something that my family and I don't drink such wines. Just sell it away let people drink silly drunk. o.o

Pictures of wine Otard

2008-02-26T17:09:00.003+08:00

This wine has been keep around 15 to 20 years i not sure how long my dad keep this wine. Can anyone tell me how much it will fetch if i sell it? haha

At loss don't know what future hold for me

2008-02-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

Am i thinking too much? Why we as human beings have to struggle living our lives?
I am uncertain what i want to do with this blog? Purely as promote those sites helping others becoming more richer than before. yucks. Or can use this blog as way of revenue. Hmm harder this way because i hardly have larger circle of friends. Is it possible to achieve financial freedom online? Lol haha feeling very low spirited when i hardly see any sales online. I was stoned already. Nonetheless, beginning is always harder and nothing is easy and smooth sailing for me. Same way as those people start business outside in reality world. Right? Hey i am mixing up my blog like personal , business and others etc as topics. Well easy for me do it all in one blog. Instead of too many blogs for what. Harder to maintain so many blogs at one go. Nuts. Well i think i will go bonkers soon coz' i signed up way too many programs. haha I think i learned quite alot of things surf net online this and that. o.o '' Due to my personalties and environment i grew up, i become unsure what i want to do in this life? When no money , how to achieve my dream of traveling around the world? You want to know what did i learn so far? ... I know alot like advertising, email , affiliate program, clickbank stuffs , autoresponders, viral thingys haha.. Internet marketing related to lot of things . wow.. how how to make income from online? When i hardly see sales coming in? is it all hype??? maybe i never do it correctly. No way, i found 2 programs can work and see a bit results. It is long way before i can achieve financial freedom.
Okay i am going to put up pictures of wines i want to see how much those value. hehe i am all $$ no choice.. zoom off

Free Killer Adsense

2008-02-25T02:00:00.004+08:00

I found this free report which contain lot of useful guide. So why not giving it away as Free? Who don't want freebies. haha hmm how to upload products in here Killer Adsense . I just post at the right side of list. U may click here or there. Up to you. LOL. Updated this blog. Here's free report which i upload to site before i got it correct. Anyways all this ftp thingy gives me headaches already. o.o'' sorry about messy linking you to tat site. haha pardon. i Wan use function of ftp but i was on tight budget. :P

Tryout of dinner gown today

2008-02-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

i wake up early this morning before 10am so can have more time be refreshed up. Actual appointment is around 12.30pm. haha wow what am i doing waking up that early,oh man?
-_-'' I was not that thrilled wearing gown haha cause no choice owe to my elder sister's wedding dinner this coming week. What choice i have?

About trying out gown make me feel like an idiot. Because my mum is so engrossed with herself in red gown and mumbling at mirror. About my elder sister keep look at mum and even take picture of her. Hmmm i feel i was left out. haix. never mind i was used to it already. I have been an invisible figure all years. well i don't know why and that. But at least my sister got take a look around of how i wear.. she only mention just Ok to it. i even said ok. no choice. what can i do with it? I feel kind of an idiot and disappointed. If only my darling is with me, he will say this and that. Only with him, i feel elated if he mention good and change this and that. because with him i was being recognized as human alive.. not as invisible figure. Like a vase between my sister and mum.

Haix i feel so lousy already. Never mind.. oH yah i found nice freebie hope this program will earn me tons tons of $$ where i can use to travel world around. hehe i need study and learn how to do before post it here. Bleahs

thinking hard

2008-02-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

Now stoned online midnight, feeling tired and lethargy because i never drink any coffee which is suppose to make me alert. Sigh ~ never mind just 1 day skip drink coffee. What is my blog is all about? Quite messy as i was not a blogger right? Oh i find this blog is so quiet mean nobody visit my blog. so sad.. haha

read sad blog yesterday

2008-02-15T20:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday nite, i have done my stuffs before go to sleep. But i happen chance upon this blog from somewhere. That blog i read was in hold memory of my friend whom his other friends set up so all can write in. An entry written by his brother which send message to my mind and i was already teary upon reading whole entry. I don't wish to mention sad history which has long been gone and we can't turn back clock. Ironically i wish that i never attend religious meeting with my mother and follow buddhism. From that time, i know him from that meeting because he once play with my young siblings when they are small studying primary school. While i listen to lessons in class. Actually, i don't know what is his name? Perhaps he always love to seek fun and talk alot with my siblings and catch my attention. Hence, i ask my mother this question:" mummy, who is this small boy who always playing with my sis and bro?" Then my mum said" Ziqiang", so i say it out , oh i see :" ziqiang.." Plus wat an coincidence , we bump onto each other at Poly because i find him familiar whom i seen before at meeting place i can't recall his name. Because, he rarely attend meeting perhaps busy with his activities. But i do still attend the meetings.
All i just don't want to see it end this way, it cut my heart into pieces and that my religious family lost one member. What come to my mind when i knew of his demise? I thought of his mother whom i also know too. I feel that we do all take everything for granted. Though i never had strike conversation with him before. But once i know people and make a friend once forever is friend. That's my thinking. I don't know. During sec sch times, i have lost Sunshine male classmate whom he always crack jokes in class and make point to greet all of us :" Good morning"whenever we bump onto him every morning or Goodbye after school. though this is all small things of basic courtesy. From that experience of losing this classmate of mine, i begin to stay away from making friends and no longer do basic courtesy which i used to say hi, good morning n goodbye to him before.
I am not escaping reality and just don't want be upset too much. I guess i am weak emotionally and always keep things to myself. All i want to say if only i never follow buddhism or whatever. Now once a while , outside in the street i seen boy or guy wearing polo or walking behaviour somehow resemble him. Gosh i want to erase my memory. Those who is close to me should know of my photogenic memory. Now i wish to suffer dementia as ever.

Helping out advertise sofa business

2008-02-13T21:34:00.002+08:00

I been thinking hard whether do this small business need advertise. Just want to help out a bit by post at this blog. My family deal in this sofa business and been working this line for years. Despite been in business for years, there is rising of fierce competition for sofa business example, IKEA also sell sofa. But my father's company is small can't fight with large company. My father used to sponsor sofas to well known company but i can't reveal in here. Nonetheless, my father still holding on to this company which is needed support whole family. Though as his children of 4 are grown ups and cant help much with company which hardly can make meet ends. Company cant branch out due to bad management and black sheep in company i can't reveal problems. Just help out only. My father only can take in small order like making sofa, sofa cushions or sofa seating coverings material. I don't know what else i can do to help him out. All i can use my computer skills to good use to advertise his company. Do anyone need sofa, cushions,etc? I am sure my father will try do his best to deliver quality not quantity goods. If you want give me contact in regarding sofa order, drop message at the box. I will email you as soon as possible. Cheers

Sunny day make person sleepy~

2008-02-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

haha i need break from writing on those sites. In fact, it makes my jelly brain swimming. I was not sure how to make lot of money from online. I am just giving it a try. Die or not die. Touch wood~ haha because i am Chinese and now this season is new year season mean cannot say taboo thing haha who cares? i Was quite tired finding ways earn abit money can do already. So i am giving this blog a try. Unsure will it attract visitors or not. Hmmm no care already. Hopefully will make sales from those sites i have not post it yet. later will post it once see results.

Advertising websites

2008-02-11T12:23:00.000+08:00

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Unsure Set up business part 2

2008-02-11T11:43:00.000+08:00

when i started out on first site, i finished reading the guide. Once i got site have to submit my site to free classified ads sites. I begin hunt down free classified sites where i can post ad on those site. But to my dismay, i been doing about 2 months already still no sale from site. Luckily i don't rely on only one site. I never give up click on ads get free money get by. So i read from the guide and from website which people also got promote products from clickbank and get earn commissions from sales generated by promoting products. As i mentioned earlier on, there is multiple streams of income to be earned online.
Back to topics, i would like to recommend this 2 sites which are free to join and sign up. It will be useful for newbies who need learn how to set up business. Great program started on. Oh i need to stress that you must be motivated enough to be serious marketing in order make income online.
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Once i registered for program which is totally free to join and sign up, i was immediately sponsored by my upline who has helped me to move up a rank by made purchases. I can't believe with my eyes that i keep getting notifications from my inbox saying i have new additions of people who sign up under me. It keep my eyes wider people from around the world. Then i was wondering how did i do that? I recall i never put much efforts in promoting this site. Only post at few sites such as traffic exchange. So funny thing is that i joined this site recently and have good things coming my way. whereas my boyfriend got joined this site 1 or 2 years ago never do any promoting and never gotten same things as me. =) perhaps i guess those programs you joined may provide varying results you may not expected. Results may varying to each individuals. Meaning that you must be serious in marketing. though everything may seems tough at first. Anyway, have fun learning and get to experience for yourself how to do marketing.

I also hope other people will benefit from 2 programs i recommend and succeed in whatever they do. Your success also mean my success too. =)

Unsure how to set up business online Part 1

2008-02-11T11:32:00.000+08:00

Anyone who wish to set up online business part time or full time?
I first time check out those earn free money websites den explore around internet. I never do much research and find obstacles to make sales. I was badly hit as i paid so much $$ for membership site which i have been promoting by using free classified ad and Google Adwords. But i knew that membership site is not GET Rich Quick Scheme. Start up website can be quite headaches for those don't know how to get started. If you paid for it, there is someone who will help you set up website. There is guide for you how to get started once you paid for membership site. as i wish to repeat this is not Get Rich Quick Scheme. You have to learn How to market this site, program or etc ...

This is my first membership site i tried out and you may check out by clicking highlight membership. This site owner will reply to you shortly once you done register or u need help. She will help you out but mostly you have to rely on yourself about how to advertise and promote this site.

Ways of earn income online

2008-02-11T11:13:00.000+08:00

What are most effective methods drive traffic to the websites you signed up? How to get people visit your blog, join those sites under your referral links? I can state few methods in here. Various ways may give varying results depend on each individuals. Who don't want have share of pie $$$ online estimated will earn more money than your current job? You may have this doubts IS IT POSSIBLE? yeah i also have this doubts too. You can work online part time basis without quit your current job. Just earn passive income online mean extra cash in your pockets.

Ways of promoting sites, products, Blogs or affiliaties program;

Do advertisement for the site. The question ?? is how? When i started out , i also don't know How? haha i simply explore around an click click on any sites i chance upon. O.O yeah those report from TOP marketing expert will tell you how 2 make $$$ but u have to fork out $$ for it. Is advertising expensive ? Yes only some expensive is using Google Adwords don't really drive visitors to your site but will help if you think of creative wordings as Impact to people. But if your budget is limited, got some are free but will be long time before you can see results.
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2008-02-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

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Besides this websites i mentioned above, i recommend other website Dailyclicks which also give alot of ads to click which may earn $$$ in shorter time. I want to stress it is not Get Rich Quick scheme. But this is good ways to help you to learn basic stuffs u need to know. How to get people join those sites which may help u earn $$$ in shorter time. But it use other payment processor not paypal. It use AlertToPay to pay you $$$ when you reach the target of payout. Alertpay is free to sign up and join.

Tips on how to begin earning income online

2008-02-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

I begin explore online from last year dec which i paid fully for membership website. I have learn harsh lessons from what i must do some research on the sites and compare lot of online sites where i can get it for free. Sigh too late regret. I just take it as learning journey. I can say i learned quite alot from online by myself. I need remind you that this site i paid fully is not Get Rich Quick scheme. A lot of time need to learn how to market and promote this site. It need traffic drive to the site is no mean feat to do so. How you going to do that without traffic? Lot of people gotten rich from blogs, internet marketing etc so. True multiple streams of income can be earned online. However, i do simple stuffs like earn free money online like clicking ads though not much money. I can mention few sites which you can earn abit of money but you need recommend to your friends know about it so you have easy time earn payout within short period. But don't try make multiple accounts as they will track it down and terminate your accounts. I can't explain details in here as it can make my blog rather long winded. hehe =) let's move to basic and simple stuffs

Warm evening of New Year Eve

2008-02-06T19:54:00.000+08:00

I was on the verge of breakdown. How to achieve a Success in making income online? Is it hype?
I hear that people write anything on the blog which can earn them income. Yes it may vary to individuals. I was newbie to blogging. Haha i have write on blog before somewhere else. Cannot reveal here. winks. What is my aim in starting blog? Will my blog attract people?
Hmm i know what's my aim and purpose? I can use this write my frustrations, advice on how to begin earn income and write stories. My first time try experiment with this blog which i am aiming link with other website who will pay me $$$. lol ^o^ So my blog seems empty at moment but will update various few things. You will know in time to come.