At loss don't know what future hold for me

Am i thinking too much? Why we as human beings have to struggle living our lives?
I am uncertain what i want to do with this blog? Purely as promote those sites helping others becoming more richer than before. yucks. Or can use this blog as way of revenue. Hmm harder this way because i hardly have larger circle of friends. Is it possible to achieve financial freedom online? Lol haha feeling very low spirited when i hardly see any sales online. I was stoned already. Nonetheless, beginning is always harder and nothing is easy and smooth sailing for me. Same way as those people start business outside in reality world. Right? Hey i am mixing up my blog like personal , business and others etc as topics. Well easy for me do it all in one blog. Instead of too many blogs for what. Harder to maintain so many blogs at one go. Nuts. Well i think i will go bonkers soon coz' i signed up way too many programs. haha I think i learned quite alot of things surf net online this and that. o.o '' Due to my personalties and environment i grew up, i become unsure what i want to do in this life? When no money , how to achieve my dream of traveling around the world? You want to know what did i learn so far? ... I know alot like advertising, email , affiliate program, clickbank stuffs , autoresponders, viral thingys haha.. Internet marketing related to lot of things . wow.. how how to make income from online? When i hardly see sales coming in? is it all hype??? maybe i never do it correctly. No way, i found 2 programs can work and see a bit results. It is long way before i can achieve financial freedom.
Okay i am going to put up pictures of wines i want to see how much those value. hehe i am all $$ no choice.. zoom off