Yesterday dated 17may

Yesterday is a day which is my grandma passed away about 7days.. the time she is going home for last time.
Yesterday morning, i woke up early to go down temple pray for ah mai where her tablet is keep there. I have mixed feelings when i see my late grandpa tablet coz' his tablet also include my dearest ah mai's name. Hence, we have praying session for her. But i feel there is need for me to abstain from meat for 3 days in order to accumulate good deeds for ah mai. Hope can lessen her suffering in other world.
I keep thinking what else i can do. So i started separate blog in memory of ah mai and wish write down moments i spent with ah mai. So at same time, can give rest of family members to write down happy moments at the blog. I am scared when i grow old, my memory of my dearest ah mai will fade as time passed by. I don't know.. Not easy be strong as ever.. coz' i feel bond shared between ah mai and i.. are unspeakable.. Task is enormous i don't where to begin writing.. i was at loss.. Perhaps first find those pictures which i can relate to those events.