cremation day of my beloved grandma

Today i woke up especially early around 7am coz' i scared of being late for prayer session. Since still early so drink coffee and eat biscuits. Wow saw my dad also woke up too.. O.O'' So we watch tv news which discuss abt taiwan govt politics. Then my dad say it's too early so we sit a while .. Then dad said need call up my fourth aunt whether she is ready go off with us to ah mai's hse. My aunt say meet at mrt station at 8.30am so i told dad to go off around 8.15am.
Exact at 8.30am reach there to fetch aunt and her kids. =)
However, in my dad's van got 2 kids who are in primary school ask me ridiculous riddle.. which i knew exact answer.. take me stupig huh.. i just say any answer similar to that answer. While talking anything .. then we encountered short traffic jam around farrer road. Finally reach there around exact 9am plus..
I immediately take cloth stick on my right side sleeve and pay respects to ah mai. Also look at her for last time and bide my farewell to her..
Finally the monk came and begin prayer session. Usual chanting and bowing 3 times in front of ah mai. Final session is to hold items to praying which is applicable to all daughters and sons of ah mai. Sigh Why cant customs change abit? I am Ah mai's favourite granddaughter.. can't i hold items to pray for ah mai.
Done prayer around 11am. According to custom, we all have to walk distance to send off ah mai to her journey to other world. Then halfway we board bus which take us to mandai columbarium, where there's lot of expressway taking about 30 to 45 mins to reach. We reach there before 12pm.. exact at 11.45pm. do chanting prayer. I never expect hall 2 cold.... But ppl at mandai take us to place where we can view my ah mai coffin. I see it is appearing at left side corner which it is being moved to other mover. Gradually, it move slow slow towards the furnace where the door is open for the coffin. Half of us are crying.. But i am not crying coz' i need to be strong.. and deliver my promise as i made to ah mai.
Done viewing, we all went outside and take off our socks which have to be thrown away. Once done wear our shoes, we all go to toilet to relive ourselves. We all waiting for awhile before going off to temple where we have set up tablet for my ah mai, where it is located near tan tock seng hospital.. novena area.. Of course, we have do prayer and kneeling, holding items to pray...My wishes are granted as i wish to hold items to pray to ah mai. I remember we done exact ard 12.45 to 1pm and go back ah mai's hse downstairs makan lunch.. We are being served 5 dishes and a dessert.. so much that i am bloated. O.O coz' i eat too hurriedly ..WEll due to time limit, we have to rush back to mandai collect my ah mai's ashes which should end around 2pm.

After lunch finish exact at 2pm plus, we all go off to mandai ard 2.30pm.. because one of my relative have to pay bills at one go by cheque at last min.
We reach there nearly exact ard 3pm plus, we waited a while for someone who will be doing ashes placement into urn. We all being led into a room where we all can take one of bones placed inside urn. 1st, all sons of ah mai placed 50 cents coins into urn be4 can put bones... Seeing full of bones.. signify my ah mai already cremated and became bag of bones... I somehow feel at loss and pick bone to urn with heavy heart. I begin to think alot about ah mai.. tears began trickle down by itself... when i realized ah mai is gone 4ever and she remain in my heart. I think exact around be4 4pm we done ashes into urn.. we go off to mount vernon put urn together with my late grandpa.. At mount vernon, we do prayer 4 ah mai first whom monk will do chanting... while waiting for other ppl come in half an hour who is in charge of open my late grandpa's place and put inside my ah mai's urn together with it.
so all done at 5.20pm.. then we went back my ah mai's hse change white shirt into other shirt ..
Finally, my mum keep hurrying me and i immediately speed off.. to hawker centre makan abit.. tat's exact 6pm...Coz' my bro order claypot rice .. which take ages to be cooked.. so We finish dinner at 7pm.. hence i came home around 8pm. I was feeling tired physically from all those events. If i ever cried too much, i will collapse earlier. If not, you wont be reading this blog.
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