In Bad and rotten mood

Earlier on checking my emails, i received email from my elder sister ..This sister of mine keep thinking she is BIG ah.. always hold stupid authority in taking over matters into her hands when she already married off. I feel pissed off when i checked website link that she trying help me find job. Wow i am damned pissed off and fed up when they keep interfere with my life by help me find job. Guess what job she is trying help me find? Work at famous coffee shop YA KUN toast..? I feel like swear at her .. i was fuming mad.
Well i been unemployed haha.. i sure my being unemployed put her to shame.. Hmmm i will not reveal my age here. Know what she is a bitch,pretend to be helpful.. Yucks.. it put me off and piss me off. Few years ago upon my graduation, i been finding jobs online and offline.. newspapers. I was hard hit.. when facing no reply to interviews. what can i do? With no working experience and my hearing disabilities. Finally spent one year found part time work at KFC where i been working about 1 and half years though got promoted but pay is terrible low..
Not until i found other job with average pay working temporarily can't reveal a place.. But i don't like boss's fickle mind.. and i will go bonkers work alone in room with no pc. -_-'' terrible feeling.. i will go insane.... talking to myself alone..
Then i don't care and quit job. Yeah i know find job is not easy.. i knew it right.. u want me carrying on working that environment which will make me insane anytime.. ..o.o until i found job.
I don't want to work full time job already.. because have to sign stupid contract.. I prefer be free as bird.. so i choose part time.. job.. Since i know few online can earn money though not much.. No choice.. maybe i decide go out work part time.. no choice when i found online earn income is damned hard.. IT make me stoned...

Now i just want to scream out here.. and swearing at people.. leave me out and quit interfere with my life.. Oh how i miss my lovable grandma who never hurry me find job when i used to stay with her years ago.

I know what to do with my life as long as damned people stay out of my life.. sigh.. My stupid sister think i don't have other friends.. Damn her. hell with her.
Damn her.. All owe to her.. i unable excel in my studies when living with her and family.. But i do extremely well in my studies when staying over at my grandma's house because of grandma's encouragement.

ALL of you out there know why.? I guess my problem is insignificant matter compare to unfortunate people out there.

I am second in family, play fiddle in family meant giving in to elder and younger ones. No matter what they want. I always give in the end.. Who will give in to me and ever listen to me? WHo? They are my aunt and grandma.. I loved both of them...
They always believe in my abilities of studying..and encourage me alot during my difficult times and when i face obstacles in my school. They don't doubt my abilities.. Know why? At least i knew they are only ones more happy to know i done well in my studies unlike my own family... I grew tired being angel giving in.. Hence know why? Being second is known to have fiery temper.. But i was opposite.. haha cant imagine.. right? I was known to have short temper.. that's all..

Okay enough of my rambling here.. Time to end here..
Still fuming mad with stupid sister of mine...