Sunny Tuesday

Been long time since i last blogging here. Because nothing to blog in here.
I wish to add that i ain't seek attention. Just plain lazy so far..

Wonder how am i gonna do up temporary blog which i can post pictures of plushies i kept in my cupboard? Just want to clear my cupboard and free up space. So i later go post pics on it..
This blog also just nice for me to type crappy here.. =)

What does feelings mean?

Feelings will mean love and liking one person
Love will mean lot of things
Person can be family, friends, close kins
Such love mean friendship, kinship, true love
Feelings are indescribable hard to fathom

How feelings come about?
Feelings can be painful, beautiful, happy, sad, sweet and unforgettable
Feelings have to be experienced
Making us stronger ever and learn overcome it

Feelings can be painful and unforgettable
Feelings are created over long periods which proved to be tough
How to let go of such feelings
Feelings can make us blind to everything surrounding us
Feelings are beyond words and actions we do
Feelings can be manipulated by people
for own gains and themselves

What can i say and do?
I am human being full of feelings
Though i only can believe myself and my feelings
Who can i blame ? Nobody but myself
Feelings can make me more confused
Feelings and thoughts can make me tired

How to differentiate people feelings towards me?
I don't wish to know anymore of this
I am tired of my feelings and everything
Feelings can tear me apart, throw me amist chaos of sorrow and despair
When i knew people can be selfish for their own sake,
i was torn apart and my feelings are not considered

Hence i have to let go of such feelings of love for my only one and last.
thou' i will not love other half anymore beside my own family and true friends in my life
I have enough feelings and be spared of torture
I will be grateful to move on and release feelings with past
I wish my feelings to be respected and let me be happy on my own life
I will not say any promise at the moment.
At least i did love once in my life and never be blinded by love

I let go of my feelings and relationship as i wish to be free
I feel tired of feelings be manipulated
I wish to be truly loved by someone i love
Now i know to love myself more

Now i let go of everything and shall begin with new life
I don't wish to start one more relationship and hurt more people
I wish to be free and on my own life
I once was naive and stupid to start love person which i should not
Now i let you go and you will free to go on your new life
I have mine and you have yours.
We both are free to do our lives

New beginning of my life

Everything has come to end
We have to learn move on
No point to keep clinging on to it
When it is not meant to be yours forever.
Have to end now or Never

Embark on new beginning of my life
Fill my life with my family, True friends and
my close kins' support and encouragement
I will move on with life as i promise
Will never break single promise.
Live my life to fullest

Oh i will be strong ever
with love and support i receive
from family, true friends and close kins

Let the moments become past and memories
Hold on to moments no more
Be free of thoughts and struggle no more
Let it be gone and hold no more to it.
It become meaningless when you hold on dearly to it.
Setbacks and experience makes us stronger than ever

Just wish everything will end
Time will heal wounds
Let it go and be free
Yearn no more of such dreams
Dreams can be illusion and will not be reality

should i let such predication affect me?

Yesterday evening, i checked my inbox for any emails. One topic catch my eye. One time, my boy give me link to geomancy website. Then i anyhow check out website out of curiousity, i browse around the site and saw free reading. Hehe.. i go post any question there. I anyhow asked question out of fun.. I ask about my financial situation: " when i will be financial freedom?"

Hmm it take weeks before i have my answer. Roll eyes. I check what is his reply to my question. Gasp.. his reply that his predication is actual financial will be after 50years old. Oh my god!.. Does he really based on my birthdate and time is enough? Wow don't need read my palm or actual chinese name? haha i only give english name. By the way, it set me thinking deeply and even affected me greatly. Wow i am in my prime age, have 20years before reach that age. O.O''
Hey no way am i allow such predication dominate my mindset? Gasp.. i believe anything possible changes will occur during 20years right? Gosh.. I believe my fate lies in my hand and i can change anything within my fate. Hmm must be positive mindset and say NO to predication dominate my mind? Anything impossible can be possible task? =) I knew his predication maybe half accurate or not accurate. hey i am not doubting his profession. But i believe with one thing anything lies in our hand can change our fates and destinies.
Actual 20 years is likely to happen but i don't want this way. So i decide take it into my hands and change actual to be 10 years. haha as i say i can excel under own motivation and perseverance. Don't give me unnecessary pressure. It wont work wonders on me. As i explained in previous entries, i used to fail terribly under extremous pressure and repeat PSLE. I can achieve anything without damned so called stress or pressure..

Hence i must set a goal to achieve my aim to make it as 10 years to achieve financial freedom.

I miss my moral supporter who always give me her full support in my decision as well as some encouragement. =( When i studied ITE or Poly, she never give me any pressure at all as i believed in myself that i can make it attitude. Because she knew i can make it as she have absolute faith in me.

Quote ' Believe in yourself with can make it attitude '
' With determination and perseverance will overcome obstacles'
' With motivation can achieve success '

What evenful day it was yesterday

Yesterday noon i went to attend meeting with my boy at Paya Lebar.. Hmm he kept blah blah:" Why they arranged meeting so early at 11.30am and he insisted want to make it at noon is better?"
I just nod head.. Keke coz my boy stay very far from Paya Lebar and took bus about an hour journey reach Paya Lebar.. While i need take transfer Mrt via Bus to Paya Lebar. No bus available around my home to Paya Lebar.. lol am i revealing too much here? Dotz.. :P

During meeting, we seen heavy downpour.. Then my boy lOoked at me saying: " Bad luck, heavy rain.." Then i turned head look outside.. wow heavy rain.. o.0'' I thought to myself:" will it rain whole day?" However, meeting came to end until heavy rain turned to drizzle.. wow.. so nice weather.. but at same time is sunny after 20 mins waiting drizzle to stop completely..

My boy wanted to go Orchard and i say "Okay.." So we decide check out bus stop which bus go to orchard and bus fares.. Hmm he look at bus fare and journey and discuss with me. After comparing bus fares and journey, we decide to check out by walking to orchard.. LOL..
Are we both kiasu or crazy? Hehe..

By the way, after rain not cooling.. Instead it became unbearable hot for me to take it.. lol..
But i still walked on despite hot weather.. Along journey to Suntec, i began to play with my boy by hitting him.. sigh he also keep bullying me by tit for tat. Hmm walk journey from Paya Lebar to Suntec with no shortcut will take 2 hours. All walking will save us 90cents of bus fares. lol
We go take rest Suntec to eat some food and drinking. Well i already became so thirsty from hot sun..

After done eating food, we decided continue our journey to POMO.. hehe suntec is near POMO so it take us 15 mins reach there.. What is next?
Nothing much to see.. We just go building next to POMO in using laptop for checking emails. lol Hmm did we go on to Orchard? Nope.. ehem .. Oh yeah nearly mention that my boy talked about soccer which i learnt abit from him about scores points and goal differences. Then i later mention are we breaking new record walking so long distance from Paya Lebar to Suntec. lol
He did ask me whether want to go Flyer.. watch live match. However he guess will have lot of people go to Flyer watch live match so we skipped as my bag have free glass from macdonald. =)

Hence we decided to go PS to eat our dinner before go home around 11pm. Because that time will estimate lot of people going home after watch Live match at Flyer. People mostly likely take mrt or bus to home.. =) So i take mrt better which it will not break my glass.. lol

Forgot to mention that i stepped into train with new display of station alight system. =) yeah i encountered more times than my boy. lol i sure once confirmed all trains will be implemented with such display.. it will be unlimited times.. haha

First Time experience

On tuesday morning i go out try out part time flyer distribution. Keke.. Where is the place? Am i so secretive? yup.. yeah i only will reveal an area which is very highly populated during working hours and lunch hour. hehe Wow i was overwhelmed with trying in giving out flyer to totally strangers. It is my first do such job.. During school days, i been doing flag days holding can with stickers. I lost count of how many times i done this work of flag days. haha... Different feeling when do flyer distribution. I realized not too easy task. O.O ''

Roll eyes. I learnt lot of thing from it.. hmm why those working people lOOk so all mighty..? Faint... So what they held high position and prestigious job, does it give them rights to look so high where they can't see people below them. Hmm i am not stating majority of people lah. Frown.. Only minjority people are fine to me not others.. :( Know why? Even my elder sister also part of that group. Puke... There's so many different groups of peopl from all walks of life..

Sigh.. I am not complaining over here. Just do this flyer distribution and heck care what people say about this.. :( well it has widen my horizon already. As for me. i don't know if i really one day hold such job like them do i snub people .. No.. oH well nobody is perfect.. I ain't perfect too haha

In my view perspection, thinking such flyer distribution is easy job.. No way it is not easy to do such work.. sigh.. Why i have to go out work part time because i can't wait for online earning work for me. When i hardly see earnings online but i did other stuffs which i can't immediately withdraw out cash which are mostly in cents US$ .. No choice i have to go out find bit money to be used online.

Oh well .. perhaps i don't have natural ability which can help me find job soon.. Or i lack experience and talents .. :( However, one good thing has served me well during my school days that is memory power.. haha .. By the way, i am growing old soon and age has catch up with me that i no longer have good memory power.. LOL..... =D

Do i blame people or my parents just cause of my hearing disabilities.? No way, i am grateful to my parents for giving me best present ever.. that's my late grandma who has loved and doted on me despite of my hearing disabilities.. Gosh i am almost verge of tears when mention my cute late grandma.. How i miss her very much? Because she enjoys my company.. with her.. :(

Past event picture

This picture was taken last year one early morning where my late grandmother funeral was held downstairs. Sigh this picture describe my feelings. I don't know what prompt me to take this picture.. Perhaps.. there will be a better tomorrow despite my control sadness inside me. Hard to bear pain of losing her. Maybe looking at sky will make me feel better and maybe she is living well in other world. :)

What bad luck i have today? Damned....

After done finish my ice cream this evening, go to bus stop with my boy who waited together for my bus. By the way, my boy and i lived far apart in different areas. Sigh! My bus finally came after long waiting of 30 mins to aboard bus. Yippee.. finally can find seat to sit ..

However, 2 stops ahead have few people aboard bus. I thought sit inside seat let other people sit. Sigh what bad luck i have today. An Indian man is seem crazy to me which i called it as lunatic. Damned.. This lunatic stare at me and look at my asset .. by the way, i wear normal and casual.. Not really sexy clothes. damned him.. As i don't care hoot about him, i sit still and use my bag as protection. Sigh i began curse of f**** what hell this lunatic doing?

All along sit throughout journey, i wonder why damned lunatic use his left thigh come so near my leg? For what? What the hell.. then i began shift my legs away from him. Damned him making my legs ached for shifting away further away from him.. I realized one thing i remember my ex-colleague say what types of men are horny and lecher? I know answer already. what hell.. damned.. arrghhh.. I did sms my boy about help.. but he advised me change seat.. However i did not do so.. and waited see how whether he Got alighted his destination. hell with him ..Lunatic sit through journey to interchange.. What hell ...Arrgh?

However, bus reached certain area i will not reveal here. But lunatic did persist using his leg come nearer my leg. Then i make my point clear and shout angrily at him:" Get your leg outta here!!" I was damned angry and he did take his leg away.. Then i look out window and don't care take second look at him. I want puke at him.. what the hell!"

When i reach my destination and began use my bag as protection of my ass as he never stand up make way.. damned him.. Arrghh.. i feel like curse him using middle finger.. damned....

I immediately alight bus and quickly go home.. just in case won't bump onto him .. Sigh.. Bad luck i feel cursing him.. hell with him .. may he be limped forever.. Arggh...
Next time, i take bus alone and hella kill me i won't sit down if it is longer journey..

Pondering over something

... I been thinking of one theory prove true.. Haha.. everything around us seems revolve about is MONEY $$$ and TIME seems tickle away fast .. time flies so quickly that i began to lose track of date and time.. :)

Ok.. How to begin on one theory..?

Firstly, last year announcement of global recession affected lot of people working .. resulted less import and export, high rate of unemployment and desperation of people..
2nd, this year come called swine flu.. -_-'' i hate such outbreak.. roll eyes.. ORANGE alert..
oh my god i am wearing orange shirt now. hahah

Reason is why i hate outbreak.. Do all of you remember Sars outbreak which caused hysteria worldwide? By the way, singapore was also hit and all school implemented that all students must take temperature check.. -__-'' That day remained eteched in my mind forever. I wont forget day..
I remember before exams that i been staying at home studying day and night.. But i recall one night i have eaten heaty mango plus period ended before 1st exam paper.. hell with fruits GOt some cooling and some heaty.. sigh.. Why? It can make my body temperature higher than before.. Results is i can never pass temperature checking.. damned... I was not ALLOWED take my 1st paper (favourite subject) and asked go home see doctor. damned What the heck.. It made me more maddening..and sad which i almost went hysteria and screaming out loud with cries.. Why ?? My body temperature is slightly higher than normal lah.. -_-'' stupid idea use temperature. mostly damned not accurate .. Anyways, they have made arrangements by using classrooms allow some of us to take papers. What hell lah? which meant i most time missed taking papers together with my mates at lecture halls.. Sigh...
I was stoned when 1st paper i can't take already and began bombarded lecturer asking will my results be affected due to Sars outbreak.. -_-'' Why?
I only can take paper together with those who Fail that paper( favourite subject of mine).. BOMB.. arrghh.. They never thought of arranging separate rooms where we can take paper. damned.. i hate to remember that unforgetten day..
Bang! That exam paper seems to clash with my attachment working day. I began to plan and think how to work and study at same time.. No worry my favourite subject i can cope with it.. :)
So i that time just made use of 3 days studying for subject.. No problem don't need study and work at same time. Haha just do some reading refresh my mind. Hmm excuse me i prefer take actual 1st paper whom people complain so hard .. i have seen that paper my mates have taken that paper. wow... i like challenging questions.. Sigh. i wanna cry already because i take that paper whom people fail 1st paper when i nvr taken it.. Well.. That paper i taken is way too easy as ABC.. haha Simple.. I can easily ace for that paper. Yeah... the score seems can soothe my heart and mind. sigh it can never erase that time and day eteched in my mind.

Hmm .. i realized one thing that past a month, i been attending free preview talk with my boyfriend which we both need earn income online.

So far we been attending such talks on subjects about:" How to live trading stocks", " How to learn investment?", " Talk on forex trading", "How to profit from ebay?" and last talk " how to work from home extra income opportunities"..

Yeah all such 2hrs free talks come with upsell after end of talks.. Sigh.. So one theory prove all.. " No free lunch in the world" You gotta to work hard for it.. -_-''
By the way, i feel people have this impression of such free talks :" will they ever learn anything from it?"
In my views, not all 100% of people attend such free talks can succeed in it. Haha such free talks can show people greed or merely desperate to earn money within short time.. Hard ... Long way to go..

By the way, my boy and i learn alot from such talks. hehe For your info, we never buy upsell cost a bomb though it come in installment per month. Roll eyes..
what are stuffs we learn anything from it? Well we do lot of research and check up on some areas we don't know. One valuable thing we learn from is ebay talk. Haha.. Don't think of impossible or hard.. haha because my boy finally seen results from it. I believe in long term we can make it.. yeah..

One motto is just go for it.. yeah.. i believe that. By the way, i been slacking too much. Sigh
Know why? I began to lose faith in 2 websites i holding on to dearly.. I don't know where to adversite them.. though can use free traffic. Hell with paid traffic i don't buy that.. If it can leave me more broke ever than before.. sigh.. -_-''

Any golden advice out there..? From readers who have read my blog.. =)

Hope to hear your comments in here. :)

Fired up

Hi all readers.. Oops these few days never update my blogs. Way too many blogs to handle. haha
Oh well these few days, i was helping to add certain stuffs online. Yeah Happy to make a single sale after all.. Cool.. As long as never give up trying other things. =)

I gotta update this blog site which can be announced to all worldwide. :)
This blogshop is click here for details which sells cheap products that has been highly sourced for people who looking for bargains. winks..

Haha too happy though make sale don't mean lot of money to earn. It take time.. :) I gotta update all of my blogs with new addition at side bar .. hehe

Think and Grow Rich Last

Began to think what did i do while studying at Polytechnic? Do you all think it seems tough for me to overcome it? haha anyways, i did overcome lot of obstacles.
At first, my poly mates don't know about my hearing disabilities until 3 months later they came to know about it. Because they never ask me any questions. Then one fine day at lecture hall, i drop bombshell to female Poly mate through sms to inform her about my hearing problems. =D I was surprised at their normal reactions. Laughing out loud, i can see that almost all of them never once have impaired hearing friends. O.O But they did know that i came from ITE. In 1st 3months, we have tons of tests.. o.0 However, i have no problems coping with it because ITE already equipped me with basic foundation i learnt already. I got ace in the subject i never do well at ITE. I was bit surprised with myself.

Not until i got hit off well with Poly mates. One of girls ask me a question which i was unable answer it. How to give answer? She ask :" How did u do it when you can't hear so well?"
Stoned.. Well i just simply gave answer like: " do more self study and practise more. I anyhow give answer also like i know how to in some subjects i learnt from ITE"

Surely you can't expect me to tell her that i am clever or what. That's not true.. Must work hard and persistence do well in studies when i am losing interest in this course after 1 and half year in course. :X
Well.. i took Electronics, Communications and Computer Engineering course at Polytechnic for 3 years. Overall i managed to graduate with Diploma and again best present for my late grandmother.


Well .. you have this thought.. Does book of think and grow rich is related to my life? Half Half..
Those who read book before. Correct me if i am wrong anything or misleaded...
Think and Grow Rich is all about teach you how to achieve success by using mind power.
Mind power is all about using thoughts and few attributes to achieve success. I believe this book not only about making money from it and it can enrich your life and create your character by being positive. Look at previous posts i have cite examples i always positive and less negative. Remove all negatives and you can achieve success..

I find a bit similarities which i have acquired during my school days. But why i can't recover my lost attributes to be applied on current situation which i am starting business online?

I find the book extremely useful. It mention must have faith in yourself, armed with determination and persistence can achieve success in anything i want in life.

Think and Grow Rich Part 3

As earlier post mentioned that i retook O level and working part time. Not until one fine day i became unemployed. haha Perhaps that time i was too young and rash making my decision without discussing with family. Heck care discussion. As previous posts , i already mention that my own family surely imposed stupid negative views on me.

Roll eyes. I was not sure what i want to do at that time. After a year of no working, my fourth aunt gave me advice that i applied for ITE and learn some skills from there. Look who gave advice to me? Not my own elder sister. Fat hope and wishful thinking.. Well .. My elder sister cared about herself and always look so high.. She was so stucked up that time and even prejudiced against ITE. Sigh. Why? Because ITE was once say as IT's The End.. stoned.. Also the school can enroll students with weak grades and famously know some students as gangsters.

I never thought much of school reputation and everything etc. Let nature take it to course. I just want go school independant and equip myself with skills. :)
First time i went apply for ITE course but it was too late as admission was closed already. So i have to wait a year to apply for ITE again. Does it defeat me yet? Shaking head .. NO..

A day come when i finally can enroll in ITE and bought every materials meant for start terms of school. I had this thoughts of doubts. How am i going to make friends etc? haha
I don't want to think too much and began to read textbooks. Wow i find those books contents are totally different and bit interesting at first. I digest information and find it bit hard to understand. Then i have this thoughts to myself: " Never mind i just read all books from first to ending. When school term started, i will eventually understand how to cover those topics i have finished read all. :)

Nothing is impossible as long as you put heart into it.
As you may think, is that all? Hmm i want to cut story short.

At first, i asked my elder sister question:" Can ITE go on to Polytechnic?"
My elder sister replied by saying :" Yes can but only students with good or excellent results can go on to Polytechnic." wow what she say make my heart sank to low spirits. It suck man... I can feel her tone give me feeling that i wont make it. Because she never once encourage me to study hard. Or else she can add one sentence to it:" No worry, you try it and study hard for it.." sigh it never happen. See stupid negative thinking... But am i letting it defeat me and put me down.. No way.. there is a way i can make it.. it telling my mind about it.

However i explained in earlier posts, only 3 people believed in me and never doubt my abilities.
What i promised study hard for it and always achieved my goals in end.. I believe i can succeed in anything i do.

At school , i have no problems coping with my school work and classmates. I feel it all owe to memory power which served me well. hehe Oops i forgot to mention what course i took. :)
It is electronics engineering course which consist of physics, mathematics and programming.. Gosh it make me shudder thinking of those subjects at that time. Have to memorise formulae and some details of subjects.
One lunch time , i was walking around the campus anywhere aimlessly.. Not until i saw poster of admission entry requirement to Polytechnic need about 2.8 points. I can't recall how many points. Because today requirements to Polytechinc have be amended few times already that i was unsure.. When i saw that, points of Polytechnic admission stuck onto my mind. From that moment, i began to have thoughts of studying hard for good grades. It is all about mind power which drive me to aim for points. Did i ever think it is impossible to achieve that. Such thoughts became goals for me to attain and achieve it.

I never thought of impossible tasks. Nonethess, i was determined to achieve my goals and abide by my promises to my late grandmother, which i once cried in front of her and said :" Ah mah, i will study harder than before and strive harder for Polytechnic."
Hence so far, i only promise certain people that i will achieve my goals go on to Polytechnic further my studies.

In the end, i graduated with score of GPA of 3.32 points where i got entry to NYP. Finally i managed to achieve my goals with help of my classmates and teachers. In fact, i owe to encouragement given by my late grandmother , 3rd aunt as well as close friend and few relatives. Without them, there wont be me today. No matter what happen i will take it in my stride. At least, i gave my late grandmother best present that she felt happy and proud of my achievement. As i want to say nothing is impossible. As long as you put heart into it with determination and persistence, eventually succeed in anything you wan to get.

No matter how long the road is and full of obstacles, must overcome it with use of mind power.

Think and Grow Rich Part 2

Here is most interesting part is why i was unable go on to JC or Polytechnic after complete my O levels. Due to admission requirements, i need to score max D7 in english.. stoned. haha Because i got E8 in english, then how? Wow unbelievable, my elder sister never provide any advice for me. Sigh. So no choice i decide retake O levels as private candidate and go out to society working.
Hmm seems like i have lost those attributes i have back studying hard. Where has my determination, persistence go to? haha it seem easy to lose and harder get it back. I was like lost sheep walking aimlessly don't know where future beckon.
As i been thinking what went wrong during that time i was doing my O levels, perhaps some events or circumstancces make it harder me to maintain thoughts. Maybe and i don't know its reasons.
I can't recall those events but i wont forget the day i lost classmate forever.. Because i once have this dream, i thought we all (whole class) will graduate together. But lost a classmate meant shatter my dreams.. Guess emotions so easy and powerful to kill such dreams..

Nonetheless, life go on for all of us.. :) Will it be better when i don't have such good memory power at all? Yes it will be better i have short term memory loss.. Good Good..haha

You think that is end of it.. I have bit more to add.. haha Pardon my long winded writing.

Think and Grow Rich Part 1

Here i shall explain how it is possible?

First i like to intro myself again. I am hearing impaired similar to deaf woman..
I never went to school for deaf.. so i studied at school for normal people..
Yeah i was grateful of my parents sent me to school with my elder sister.. Where i get to learn chinese language at school, unlike my fellow deaf friends who never have learn a word of chinese language..

My primary school results are not that great nor outstanding unlike my elder sister.. O_o'' Haha i even repeat PSLE ( Primary School Leaving Exam) to those readers don't know what it mean. Click more details education system .. That time when i finally woke up and come to my senses..
which my elder sis asked me what i want to do when i can't go on to secondary school. She said example like to eat , sleep etc.. It made me think more and deeply .. Finally one time i thought what my primary 5 teacher said once to me in front of whole class :" Are you stupid ? Can't do simple composition which i forgot to do. " That statement she made still remain etched in my mind.. and so fresh when i came to recall that... Sigh...
Final decision i made is to go back to school and retake PSLE.. First i asked and begged my mum don't hire any more home tutor for me.. i can't take any more pressure to take tuition.. Know why? That time i was taking PSLE few months before.. i have feelings of enormous pressure having to cope with extra school and home tuitions.. Faint.. i can't barely cope with pressure and begin to lose interest in studying...haha.. That is result they want from me.. Haha...
I know myself well because i found out from many years of studying.. is that i wont excel under stupid enormous pressure.

But my mum was so firm with her decision to hire home tutor for me. You have this thought:" did you give up trying ? " NO way.. i am going to keep on trying .. Hence i sought help from my favourite auntie to help me persuade mum don't hire any more tutor.. . How did i do? well i promise my auntie that i will study on my own and study hard for coming exams this time..
Yeah i get my wishes finally.. Mum agreed don't hire any tutor for me..
Haha .. see never give up trying on.. :)

Well as you see . more persistence will achieve any goals you set.
Next what happen in the end?
Did i achieve exact what i promise my auntie? :)

Yeah i manage to pass my exams all just average grades go on to secondary school.
But feeling disappointed that i was promoted to normal stream of 5 years education i have to spend at school. Happy that i able go on to secondary school..

Hmm even my own family don't think much when i said that i will study harder at school. Sigh..
Not when i have set goals to achieve when i come to know my elder sister mention one of her classmate also made it to express stream from normal stream. Hehe it become a dream to me as well as my wishes.. Hence, such thoughts of it push me to study harder.. Well from that time, i was motivated to achieve my goals to go on express streams.. What is that u say of this? It is thoughts which can developed persisitence and determination i shown in my studies. Wow is it extreme change in me? o.0?? i don't know. haha Despite my mum think lowly of me and think negatively that i wont make it .. due to my primary school results that i Got last in class position..

As i have explained earlier, mind is quite powerful that it can help me through all the way.. To achieve success in my studies that i topped my class and went on to express stream.. Finally..i believe as long as i have faith in myself armed with determination that i can make it..
Haha such good news to share with my auntie.. that she bleamed so wide and happy for me as well as my late grandmother who doted on me from young till today. Without them, i will not be here today saying my story.. :)
So far only 3 people in my life have faith in me and my abilities to overcome those obstacles.
They are my close friend, favourite auntie and late grandmother who keep encouraging me and have faith in me..

I shall continue in next post..

Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill

Few days ago, i began to read this book " Think and Grow Rich" wrote by Napoleon Hill..
I believe that quite lot of many people read this book before.. But how many have benefit from it?
What is all about this book? Wow.. unbelievable that i never once read this book when i was studying years ago..
Haha

I borrow this book from my boyfriend who has bought old version three years ago. Roll eyes ..
He never benefit anything from it.. I know WHY? hehe
Because i know WHY my boy never benefit from it? Coz' he find it hard to apply on in his life.. Gosh.. He keep saying almost every book which have contents of Mind stuffs is hard because it require mind power ?

hmm i shall leave out contents i been reading from the book as mentioned..

Is this book useful for all people from all walks of life? Yes it is.. Also it can be apply when you still studying... haha

Depends on each individuals and their thinking. hmmm
I wish to explain why the book can be useful to those who are studying...?

As this book explain about using your mind power.. Wow.. yeah Mind is tat powerful...

Let me cite an example.. why?
I never read this book when i was studying years ago. Plus nobody recommend this book to me..
Can impossible become possible? Yes it can be made possible as long as you have determination, persistence, diligence and patience.

While reading this book, i realized that attributes of determination, persistence , diligence and patience i been applying on when i was studying year agos to pursue my higher education. I was motivated to study harder than before... Yes Mind power is so powerful it keep telling me that i can make it... When i have goal to achieve it.. is it possible? Yes i never think negative and it helped me alot during my school days...
By the way, my own family never encourage me in my studies and they keep impose negative views on me.. wow.. i been growing up facing all negatives.. Stoned.. haha nonetheless i never let it affect me greatly.. Gosh you might find it and thinking :" How is it possible?"

Hmm you all may find this post way too too long to read. So i shall summarize it in detail by posts and how is it possible to achieve that?

Awesome Singaporean Community You Should Check Out!

Hi there,

I recently joined a REALLY cool site called Work From Home Singaporeans and I think you should check it out too:

>> http://www.workfromhomesingaporeans.com/aff/vip.php?id=45
Personally feel this site is too good and useful for those who are new to internet marketing and keen to earn extra income while holding regular job.

Here's the thing.. I just read in the newspaper that more jobs are going to be axed for the next 6 months.

Many people I know who have tried to find extra forms of employment and income, so as to make sure that they can continue providing food on the table.

But it isn’t easy finding extra jobs when nobody is hiring and companies are cutting costs.

Then it dawned on me, hence i thought to myself why not work from home?

Now that offline sources of income are gradually diminishing, it’s definitely time to explore other options of earning income online.

And that's when I discovered this website while randomly surfing online for Work From Home Opportunities:

>> http://www.workfromhomesingaporeans.com/aff/vip.php?id=45

And I honestly feel what my two friends Calvin & Patricia has done is indeed very noble. With "Work From Home Singaporeans", they've set up an awesome community where they reveal one proven online money making strategy every 1-2 weeks.

You'll also get to listen to interviews with other successful work from home Singaporean entrepreneurs so you can model after their success formula.

On top of that, you get to make new friends and have fun while you learn at the same time.

Really, the amount of value you'll receive from this awesome membership
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Oh, did I mention that it's completely FREE to sign up?

Yes, it sounds insane but it's true!

But I'm not sure when Calvin & Patricia is going to start charging for this, as they want to limit the members so they can devote their time fully on them.

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Unpredictable weather

Today i went out for walk, seeing sky with dark clouds which i thought it will rain.
Yet it never rain yet. o.o''
Wow Heaven like make fun of me, fool me into thinking it will rain later.. o.o
Never mind, i am used to it. haha

Oops wondering should i redesign this blog of mine? I been lazy so long .. never update this blog of mine... Pardon my laziness. Not much to say nowadays.

I just done other blogs thinking, how to manage time by update each blogs individually.

Deeply in thoughts, i don't know what is my purpose in life? o.0? Haha
Laughing out loud, am i withering away somewhere?
Guess i better not dream and hope too much lately.. Better do my own stuffs, or otherwise i will be lazy again..